I am a crazy ass mess right now. I feel like laughing and crying every moment for no reason at all. I am unmotivated to do anything productive even when it really is neccessary. I feel like a child kicking and screaming sometimes and I think the thing that I'm avoiding is growing up. But I can't avoid it. I literally feeling like a crying child right now but I just want to avoid everything except beer friends and fun and it doesn't make any sense. And I'm pretty sure that I am insane.

I'm home for Easter after an amazing week in Daytona Beach, Florida during spring break. I have to say that this year is seriously competing for favorite year of my life. By graduation it just might over take Junior into senior year of high school!

I am going to look back on these days and laugh at how spoiled and blessed I was. It all started with an amazing summer at home with my fenwick loves and it didn't stop with the school year. Major drama has been avoided (I don't see how the drama could increase after last year) and I've grown closer to the important people at Bradley. I studied in London and Dublin with Sara and grew a lot more independent. I've had non stop fun this semester so far including a ridiculously fun spring break with Sara, Joe and the boys. I'm more in debt than I've ever been but it's all been worth it.

I think this might be God's way of telling me to enjoy it now because soon reality is going to hit.