Freaking Out

I have absolutely no idea what I want to do when I graduate ...

I know all the steps that I SHOULD be taking towards getting a job post-graduation. Yet I am not doing any of them. When I picture myself as a public relations executive I sometimes think that I don't actually want to write press releases and talk with the media and sell a message.

But that's what I've been studying for 4 years. And I DO like it. And it's fun. I guess that I just need to try it out and if I like it stick with it. And why haven't I gotten an internship? I know the importance of them and all that good stuff, yet I have ignored reality and instead worked in retail, fastfood and manufacturing. I am a failure. And even after writing all of this down I will still not be any closer to finding a job or taking the appropriate actions.

Here's hoping Fenwick's development office has something open when I graduate ... I don't even know if I am kidding with that statement or not!

I have so many goals for the semester. I want to lose weight, eat better, exercize more, spend less money, and apply myself to school work and other committments. Yet day by day I don't take any steps toward those goals either. My will power is completely shot and I desperately need it back!

It's my freaking Senior Year of College!!!!

I am so not okay with this ...