Hah! Just kidding Peoria ...

Forest Park get ready for a summer full of Mary!

I am not looking forward to this summer. I'm looking forward for the semester being finished. But beyond that my excitement fades ...

Either option is duller than it should be. And my lack of enthusiasm has translated into a lack of planning either way or the other. I've been sitting on the fence between Forest Park and Peoria and now my employment options aren't too bright.

It's easier to stay in Peoria. But I am going to miss Joe so much that it hurts already. It wasn't as hard to leave him last summer ... I guess now I know how much it sucks. And I don't have the excitement of moving into the house to distract me like last summer. Then again, Johanna and Caryn will both be in their respective home towns anyway, so that's one less reason to opt for FoPo. There are more people living in Peoria than last summer (Marla, Laura, Katie, Denise, Jamie) ... so that wouldn't completely suck. I should have just faced facts and planned to live down here, because now I told Bradley that I wouldn't be working here. All I've got is Velvet Freeze. I need a second job to afford to live. Okay, slight exageration .. but there's no excuse for only having one job this summer. Other that I avoid facing reality and was waiting for something perfect to come through without the effort. And don't even get me started on the whole lack of career experience factor ...

Whoah, sorry I didn't plan on spilling all that but I just can't stop. I need to just pick a spot and concentrate on finalizing my plans and maybe even start to look forward to it ...

And it will probably be in Peoria ...