Excerpt that pretty much sums up my emotions at the present moment ...
MaryFeelsJstRght: so i am finally getting down to writing cover letters and applying for internships for the summer today ...
MaryFeelsJstRght: so that's good.
MuFfY1421: awesome...i went in to talk to the guy about the psyc internship class for next semester
MuFfY1421: i registered for my last semester of undergrad yesterday
MaryFeelsJstRght: aah!
MaryFeelsJstRght: creepy
MuFfY1421: i know
MaryFeelsJstRght: the bad news is only 2 of 5 of my applications are for chicago area jobs :-(
MuFfY1421: where are the others?
MaryFeelsJstRght: Peoria
MuFfY1421: its okay...im thinking about staying in omaha again
MaryFeelsJstRght: I'm very torn. I don't know where I want to be. or what i want to do. it's frustrating
MuFfY1421: I AGREE!
MaryFeelsJstRght: joe usually talks about s aying up here. but now he's talking about the possibility of political internships in peoria
MaryFeelsJstRght: im like ah! i need to know what to expect
MaryFeelsJstRght: i dont like the uncertainty on both our ends
MaryFeelsJstRght: it could work out perfectly or suckily
MuFfY1421: well at least you are applying both places
MuFfY1421: ill probably try that too but im really thinking about staying here
MuFfY1421: you should apply for a job in omaha
MaryFeelsJstRght: and the future is starting TO REALLY freak me out because i am starting to realize that we can end up ANYWHERE. no matter what we plan for careers etc any one of us could end up going anywhere
MaryFeelsJstRght: BLAH!
MaryFeelsJstRght: lol i should. or champaigne
MuFfY1421: we really could
MaryFeelsJstRght: ideally you will stay in omaha, caryn in champaigne, and joe and i in peoria that way i dont feel like i am missing out on as much
MuFfY1421: lol its true
MaryFeelsJstRght: i hate missing people and not knowing when i will see them next
MaryFeelsJstRght: hopefully things all work out. i guess they usually do.
MuFfY1421: ps your amazing and i heart you
MaryFeelsJstRght: aww that made me smile bigger than this emoticon --> :-D
MaryFeelsJstRght: i love you too!
Oh future, how you both intrigue and torment me ...
Thursday, March 22, 2007
Sunday, March 18, 2007
Friday, March 16, 2007
So here I am. Sitting in my bed at home. Surfing the web, listening to my itunes, in an empty house. And I find myself resisting the urge to get up and do something productive. I have a bag full of homework and projects that await me across the room. But I promised myself a weekend of nothing but relaxing and fun. I forget what it is like to completely put my deadlines aside. But there will be time for all of that come Monday ...
This semester has drained me a lot. I thought that I would be able to handle it all, and when it comes down to it I am. But it is still taking a toll on me. Being so busy does make me really enjoy the time that I get to spend with my friends, and not party just for the sake of partying. So that's beneficial I think. And being so busy and being so involved makes me feel accomplished. It makes me realize that I really do like planning events and leading others and generally performing public relations like activities. If I could just fulfill my positions and put the schoolwork on hold I think I would be having a blast. So that's a good sign for the whole 'future' thing.
I cannot flipping wait to party at Gaelic Storm tonight and embrace my Irish Heritage tomorrow on Madison Street. Plus getting to see Johanna, Marty, Josephine, and hopefully others will be so refreshing. I'm in need of some good friends and some good drinks this weekend ...
This past week found me burning out. I just couldn't muster the motivation I needed to do anything. I spent godknows how many hours writing and rewriting lists of things to be done ... I think I could have been bordering on insanity for a moment there.
And now that the week is over, I look back and realize that despite my 'burn out', I still got all my pressing responsibilities taken care of, and the 3 midterms that I thoughts I butchered? Well I did get 77% on one which I am NOT happy with, but I got a 85% on the other, and 100.3% on the last. I think that I am too hard on myself ...
Speaking of, please do not introduce the topics of 'future', 'career', or 'internship' in front of me. You will hear a rant and rave about how I have no direction in my life, don't know if my potential will really turn into anything worthwhile, and my dream to me a secretary for the rest of my life .... Trust me, you don't want to be exposed to it ...
This semester has drained me a lot. I thought that I would be able to handle it all, and when it comes down to it I am. But it is still taking a toll on me. Being so busy does make me really enjoy the time that I get to spend with my friends, and not party just for the sake of partying. So that's beneficial I think. And being so busy and being so involved makes me feel accomplished. It makes me realize that I really do like planning events and leading others and generally performing public relations like activities. If I could just fulfill my positions and put the schoolwork on hold I think I would be having a blast. So that's a good sign for the whole 'future' thing.
I cannot flipping wait to party at Gaelic Storm tonight and embrace my Irish Heritage tomorrow on Madison Street. Plus getting to see Johanna, Marty, Josephine, and hopefully others will be so refreshing. I'm in need of some good friends and some good drinks this weekend ...
This past week found me burning out. I just couldn't muster the motivation I needed to do anything. I spent godknows how many hours writing and rewriting lists of things to be done ... I think I could have been bordering on insanity for a moment there.
And now that the week is over, I look back and realize that despite my 'burn out', I still got all my pressing responsibilities taken care of, and the 3 midterms that I thoughts I butchered? Well I did get 77% on one which I am NOT happy with, but I got a 85% on the other, and 100.3% on the last. I think that I am too hard on myself ...
Speaking of, please do not introduce the topics of 'future', 'career', or 'internship' in front of me. You will hear a rant and rave about how I have no direction in my life, don't know if my potential will really turn into anything worthwhile, and my dream to me a secretary for the rest of my life .... Trust me, you don't want to be exposed to it ...
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