Post Graduation Thoughts:

My brother's graduation that is. Brian Bauer sat behind me and I got to chat with him for a bit, that was fun. I got a glimpse of how bizzare our classes 10 year reunion will be. Everytime I looked up I was like, "hm, I graduated with that person." IT was really rather strange. I nearly forgot about some of them. During the ceremony I also got a little nostalgic (duh, this is me after all) It really got me thinking about my Fenwick experience. I was really blessed for everything I experienced there. It's almost something out of a book or movie when I really think about it. That first day of freshman year, scared and excited and learning all these traditions. Not walking across the shield, the west wing, sweating in those blazers. I can't believe that we graduated two freaking years ago! I kinda miss that summer. Before we all went off to college. It was a great snapshot of time. But everyone must move on, and we've all moved on to even better places and people. I just got a wave of appreciation/friar pride/nostalgia/OLDness. So I thought I would share.




I MOVE INTO 1607 IN 4 DAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I will be SO relieved when I get to move down to Peoria. Life here has become utterly boring. Mostly because I don't have a job. I sleep as long as I can because I don't have anything to do when I wake up. I'm completely lazy and unmotivated the entire day, I usually see a friend or hang out with Joe, go to sleep, and start the whole thing over again. Really not a riveting summer. However, I have had a lot of fun with friends here, and I will miss many dearly when I am gone for the summer. I just need to get going with my summer before I loose my mind.

I began going through some old blog entries in an effort to find an amusing quiz to re-fill out, which I will probably do after this post. And just by reading entries here and there from the past 2 years of my life ... well I just had to laugh mostly. So much drama! Anonomous comments and boys sucking and friends not being there and leaving high school friends and changes in college and yadda yadda yadda ... It's positively FUNNY to read now. And very bizzare. And I couldn't shake the feeling of a biiiig transition that happened somewhere in there without me even noticing. One year ago and beyond I was completely centered on my high school friends, random get togethers, and not losing touch with anyone. College friends were only there to distract me or fill in for those waiting at home. Or so it seemed. But slowly the friends I've made in college have grown to be my family and the times that I really hang out with high school friends become few and far between. Don't get me wrong, certain close friends from high school still mean the world to me. But as a whole, the group of people that I call my 'friends' from home has dwindled to a few close relationships as opposed to an awkward arrangement of acquaintences.

It's interesting to realize how I've changed by reading my past .... so interesting it's almost creepy.

It also makes me appreciate the present a hell of a lot. I'm seeing friends I haven't seen in forever and it feels amazing, I'm soon to be moving into a house with 4 of my closest friends at Bradley, I can't even imagine what is to come. I am finally moving back in with Jamie. We will be roommates again for the summer. I have found a wonderful boyfriend that has calmed me in so many ways. I am more mature and focused than what I used to be. I'm growing up. And it's very strange indeed ...

Growing up is never easy. You hold on to things that were. You wonder what's to come. But that night, I think we knew it was time to let go of what had been, and look ahead to what would be. Other days. New days. Days to come. The thing is, we didn't have to hate each other for getting older. We just had to forgive ourselves... for growing up.
Wonder Years


Ah well, I should get some sleep. I'll probably fill out that survey instead though ...

I, am, SO FREAKING BORED I CAN'T STAND IT!!!

Earlier today I stopped by St. Bernardine's day (a block party my church throws pretty much), then I did some packing for the move to Peoria. I did as much as I could, but all that's left are clothes that I will pack the day or two before I leave. I'm hanging out with Caryn shortly but for the past few hours I've been going out of my mind, I've stalked as many people as I could on facebook and myspace but I just don't have anything left to do!

Except of course update this ....

I can't wait to be down in Peoria. Right now I am especially looking forward to it because I will be working! Doing SOMETHING to pass the time! Working two jobs, working out at Hausler, drinking, and working on KD Bling and Shamrock stuff should keep me busy. At least more busy than I am up at home. But I will miss everyone from up here. It's gonna suck not to be here all summer for girls movie nights and random get togethers. But everyone is always welcome to visit P-Town. And hopefully I'll make it home at least a few times. Plus Joe will be up here ... don't even get me started on that, because I already miss him when I don't see him for a day or two, we are entirely too spoiled.

I am excited for the move in to the house. But I am also starting to freak out about several things. Money being the foremost concern, not working these few weeks I'm up at home is killing me. I'm going to be depending on my parents until my first pay check and I hate doing that to them. I just need to start saving money up and not blow it all this summer as I have been prone to do. I hate the responsibilities of growing up ...

And we apparently are having a party the Saturday Jamie and I are moving in. So all friends are welcome.

I get to get my brother, David, and my brother's girlfriend drunk when they help move me in!!! hahaha score!

Well, I guess that's all I can think of to say ... time to cure my boredom some other way ....

I'm frustrated. But I'll just bite my lip and it should go away ...

I love girls movie nights.

I can't wait to be back in Peoria.

But I also am thoroughly enjoying my time up here and will miss my friends and family and boyfriend dearly :-/

Conflicting feelings tonight ...

So my goals for the summer are being met quite succesfully!

I haven't spent one night bored and alone, I've had dates with Maria, Johanna AND Denise. I've gotten together with the 1607 girls at least once (so far), I basked in the insanity of Johanna, me, Chris, and Marty together again. I paid a visit to Fenwick with my loves Caryn and Melissa. And I have attendid sisterly/grade school duties accompanied by Mary Rehor. Plus lots of family time in there too. I've been packing for the move to Peoria. And I've seen lots of Joe.

And tonight I get a girls' movie night. How fantastic!

If the rest of my few weeks at home continues on this pattern I will be a happy Mary :)

Oh yeah, and to follow suit with Jamie and Sara ... PARTY AT 1607 MAIN, PEORIA on June 3rd. All friends are invited and should plan on attending. That is all.

Dude, my friends totally rock.

I am so ridiculously excited to live in the house together. 1607, bitches! It's going to be OUTRAGEOUS!!!

Speaking of ... June 3rd, we're breaking in the house. You know what that means, PARTY! Who's coming to Peoria? I'm looking at you ....

And before I go any further HAPPY BIRTHDAY LISA!!! That girl freaking rocks!

So I guess that's all I've got.

Later!

So I am cleaning out my room in an effort to pack for the house and simplify my life. I have way too much shit, and about 3/4 of it is all memorabilia ... yearbooks, notes, old journals, anything and everything that i've accumulated throughout my years really. And I am keeping it all, I've decided I'm way to sentimental, oh well. Someday I'll be glad that I still have it all ...

Something I uncovered in my cleaning that I just HAD to share because it made me laugh long and hard:

Dearest Mary:
I couldn't help but notice your pancake reference on your away message. Did you really have to bring it up again? I mean why can't we just try to be civil. I thought things were okay, and then you bring up the Pankcakes ... out of nowhere! It's obvious that you are still head over heels in love with me ... but I'm really just sick of fighting. I realize that we will never have that delicious, batter-fried, goodness that we had before. I mean nothing could ever compare to that maple-syrup ... but still I am an incredibly deep, important person and I know everything. So can't you please be nice to me? Please do not mention the pancakes again ... or I will have to resort to quoting some famous wise guru such as Aunt Jemima or Mrs. Butersworth. You do not want to mess with my oh-so-intelligent responses! Let's be nice. What happened is in the past. We will always have the memory of those fluffy, golden-brown, magical cakes even if we never taste them together again. Just remember that I am completely the greatest person ever.
and please - Leggo my Ego!


I don't care if you don't think that was funny, I thought it was HILARIOUS. Caryn J Lichtenberg was and is brilliant :)

Well, life has been on the crazy side lately. I can barely explain them to myself let alone to my blog, so we'll just pick up in the present.

I'm back home in Forest Park. Next three weeks should be good, finally seeing hometown friends, spending some quality family time and getting ready to move into 1607.

Saying goodbye to sophomore year was a LOT harder than I thought it would be. I honestly didn't realize what incredible memories I had and what really great friendships I had formed and strengthened this year. The melancholy of this goodbye was a little muted since I am looking so forward to next year and living in the house with my girls. There was only one shattering goodbye and I don't really want to talk about that one because it makes me sad. You know who you are.

During the ride back home today I got this sudden pang of feeling really old. I don't know if I liked it or not.

Well, I thought I would have more to say, but it turns out I really don't. If you're at home, hit me up before June 1st. We'll chill :)