Wow, a post AND a survey in one day? Well, when it rains its pours so they say ...

1. When you look at yourself in the mirror, what's the first thing you look at? either, "damn, I look good today, I am pleasantly surprised' OR (more frequently) "ew, i have to stop eating/drinking beer"

2. How much cash do you have on you? Around $100, don't be jealous because that's about ALL the money i have to my name. I just cashed my paycheck from work.

3. Whats a word that rhymes with "TEST"? Quest! Let's go on one !

4. Favorite plant? I'll go all 'kappa delta' and say White Roses. I'm not a big plant person ...

5. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your cell phone? I only have a received call list, and the 4th one was leslie from my PR class group saying my meeting was cancelled, which made me very happy yesterday afternoon :)

6. What is your main ring tone on your phone? "Walkin' Around", I don't get to download 'cool' ringtones.

7. What shirt are you wearing? A Green KD 'katy' shirt

8. Do you "label" yourself, could you? I'm sure that my label and your label would be different.

9. Name brand of your shoes currently wearing? Montego bay Flip Flops, woo Payless!

10. Bright or Dark Room? At the moment? it's rather bright I suppose ...

11. What do you think about the person who took this survey before you? All of the friars who took it before me are QUITE amazing in each of their own ways. I miss them all!

12. Ever "spilled the beans"? Probably, I feel the need to share things with a lot of my close friends when maybe it should be kept between two people or not told at all. It's a fault ...

13. What were you doing at midnight last night? hm, 24 hours ago that would be ... I was cuddling with Joe before bed :)

14. What did your last text message you received on your cell phone say? “Thank you for caring enough to send the very best" from my mom re: her hallmark bday card

15. Do you ever click on "Pop Ups" or Banners? Uh, duh. No. I have had ENOUGH viruses and crap.

16. What's a saying that you say a lot? Anything in a complaining/whining tone. Why can't I have my own personality :(

17. Who told you they loved you last? Joe :)

18. Last furry thing you touched? uh, probably something in the woods. When I was lost for 2 hours with Jamie Kate and Sara. And Peoria townies had to save us. Don't ask for the whole story unless you are prepared to hear it ALL.

19. How many hours a week do you work? 12-16 ... and they always seem to be a really inconvenient 12-16. But ah well, such is life.


20. How many rolls of film do you need to get developed?Come now, this is the digital age. I do have quite a few waiting to be printed out though. And a disposable roll from Bid Day.

21. Favorite age you have been so far? 21. Oh wait, I haven't been yet? Well in that case 17 I suppose. (side to Muffy, remember our quote?)

22. Your worst enemy? I think I've finally gotten over all of my negative feelings for select people in my past. So that slot is open, any takers?

23. What is your current desktop picture? Picture of Sara, Denise, Jamie, kate, and me from Bug's Angels Power hour. I love my girls.

24. What was the last thing you said to someone? Thanks for listening, to Joe. I told him my entire day. Which was a lot between forest stories and Walmart being a bitch stories and all things in between

25. If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to change a major regret? a million bucks. The past is the past, and the future would look pretty and sparkly with 1 million dollars. Plus, I'm a fan of that whole regrets are what shapes us idea thing.



** Side note, I am really feeling the stress at times of trying to sell something to someone that I am still in the process of selling to myself. Sorry, had to get that out ...

Wow, I really never write in this thing anymore. What a change from last year. Well, I find myself not wanting to get started on any of this 'homework' thing. So I turn to the blog, always a better alternative.

Things at Bradley are certainly a roller coaster ride this year. There are periods that things SUCK ridiculously a lot. EVERYTHING goes wrong and I get sad and stressed and mad all at the same time .... and then all of a sudden a weight is lifted and life is good for some time. I don't even think I can explain what has been going on here. An intricate web of friendships, new, old, strong, weak, and in transition all connected by a spiders web. Sometimes I think that I am the only one who has a grip on reality and everyone else is living in their own universe, and other times I feel like everyone else has it right and I am alone in left field. For some reason I feel like right now I am in the eye of the storm. But I have no control over anyone and don't even feel like I really know what's going on and that scares me out of my mind. Lunch with Jamie the othe day made me feel semi sane once again, ironic since the two of us are CLEARLY out of our fucking minds, I wish that I could have those moments with her more often. But I just have to live for the moments when she suddenly makes like a little more clear for me.

Saturday night was Rubber Ducky ... the usual randomosity that comes from registered parties. And I almost remember some of it, and afterwards I went up to joe's room and facebooked and messaged a bunch of semi random aquaintences. I am such a drunken facebook slut. Oh well ...

Speaking of facebook, now that community colleges have received facebook and I am *finally* friends with mary Rehor, I have been getting REALLY weirded out by the facebook requests that I have been gettting. When facebook stalking freaks *me* out, you know that it's getting ridiculous! Old Grade School friends and "friends" ... weirding me out!

So back to what's going on in my life ... working at Hallmark is seriously turning me sappy. I spent my down hours at work reading all the cards around me, and it makes me want to send people cards for no reason! I like working there though, it's a lot less stressful than my work at the disney store over the summer, and the people are much more friendly. I am calling in sick on Saturday thought :-/ ... Whoops, I feel bad, but I *really* want to go to Blaze and I have never called in sick before, and I really want to bring Joe to Blaze ... and I suck and responsibility but oh well. I am really looking forward to Blaze though, actually hang out with kds, and introduce Joe to to my sisters. It should be a lot of fun.

"C is for Cookie" by The Cookie Monster just came up on my iTunes ... I really need to stop using MyTunes.

Can all my friends PLEASE operate in reality and say what they really mean and say? Either people are insane or I am missing a huge chunk of something.

Why am I so god damn passive?

Joe makes me happy, and it makes me more happy that my friends can tell that.

When did this post get ADHD?

I miss home more than I missed it last year.

Freshman year really is over and never coming back. I kind of liked freshman year.

Okay, I'm bloggered out. Catch ya'll later.

I need to post ... But I don't have time.

I need to talk to my best friends from home, which I haven't because I suck, and don't have the time.

Caryn and I are in the midst of trying to plan a Notre Dame Field Trip ... *crosses fingers*

I am so behind on reading blogs, and that makes me feel so unconnected.

I am so in love.

I really need to go shower before work!, So Good*byeeee*

Oh yeah, duh ...

The girls and I signed the lease for our house next year!!!!! Hells bitches!!! I CANNOT wait to live in that house!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Amazing times ahead ...

And my brother is leaving for Kairos tonight, I feel REALLY old.

I love people so much. And memories. Yep, people and memories are pretty darn cool. I wish I could express that better.

Well, I guess that I *finally* have time for an actual post. Until now I feel like I haven't gotten a spare chance to breathe, let alone blog! With rush starting, classes heating up, and issues being raised, I have been feeling so stressed and frazzled almost everywhere I go. Thank God for Joe, because when I spend time with him I can relax and just not think of anything but being with him for a moment.
Rush started this weekend and you know what THAT means ... Rush will be OVER next weekend :) I had no weekend, it was all rush and squeezing in homework. Rush just seems to take all little problems and blow them up to an intense level. People weren't kidding when they said it was a stressful time!
Rush has somewhat made me question some things ... I hope that once rush is over things settle down the way that they are supposed to. I've been forced to live and breathe Kappa Delta the past few weeks, and it hasn't been the greatest I have to admit. It started out alright and i thought that I would get close with some of the girls ... but it didn't really last. Without Denise I don't know what the house would really offer to me. I know that it is mostly my fault. I isolate myself, and last semester especially I gave up on trying to make conections with people in the house. I just feel like I shouldn't have to create friendships here at this point, they should already be there. I'll just have to work on it this year I guess.
Once rush is over things will hopefully change a bit around here. I want to go hang out at SAE whenever, especially on the weekends. Party with and meet all their new pledges, mingle and meet new people, drink some, hookah some, be out of order some. Go to random parties other than sae, maybe even with kappa deltas, who knows. But especially with the BUG'S ANGELS!!! The weekend after rush is Rubber Ducky! and after that is BLAZE! So let's hope that everything just keeps on getting better after Sunday ...

I feel like I should have more to say since it's been so long ...

Oh! I love working at Hallmark. Everyone there is really nice, and the work isn't stressful at all. Because I really don't need one more thing to stress me out! Everyone should expect cards from me for special occastions, looking at the cards is so fun, it makes me want to buy cards for people for no reason at all! Speaking of buying ...I'M BROKE!!! Thank God I started work when I did!

Okay, that's all I've got.

I am stressed out. In basically every sense of the word. I need something. I wish I knew what that something was ...

So, I'm sitting here at my desk at 10:15 on a Wednesday night. The night before my day full of classes. As I still have a bitchy busy work Spanish assignment to do. But I'm looking at my to do list on my computer and I see that 'blog' is on there. Well, I'm being productive if I can cross something off of my 'to do' list. So here I am blogging. I feel like I never get time aside to write in here anymore. I don't know where my time goes. Tuesdays and Thursdays I am consumed with class, and Monday Wednesdays and Fridays I'm consumed with homework. Plus I always find stupid things to do which I call productive but which others might call 'procrastination'. And since this semester I'm trying to actually be 'involved' on campus I have at least a meeting every night it's beginning to seem like. And on top of all that, today was my first day working at Hallmark. I think it will be a good job, a fun store, and nice old lady co-workers. Only problem is I'm scheduled next weekend since I forgot to tell them about rush. So I already have to ask to switch around my schedule. Whoops. I am getting around 16 hours a week which is FANTASTIC! So much better than my 8 hours/week at the Disney Store! Which also is good cuz um, I'm sort of going broke. MAKE ME STOP SPENDING MONEY! Oh well. I feel bad that I haven't had time to call some friends from home who I really should have by now. It's just so easy to get caught up into the schooltime swing and forget how much time has passed between talking to some people. I haven't even been religiously reading blogs *gasp* What is coming over me?

The girls and I found a house for next year. We fell in love. Then reality set in, so we'll see if it actually ends up going through . But I for one hope that it does.

Rush starts this weekend! CRAZY! I am excited for a new pledge class, but also excited for rush rules to be over. To be able to party where I want and with who I want. Visit my Geisert girls. And just have things settle into ... not normalcy. But some semblence of it. I feel bad cuz I don't think I'm feeling this 'sisterhood' thing as much as I should be. AH well, no time to worry about things. Too much homework to do and meetings to go to and boyfriends to see and homework to do and rush to prepare for, and 'blog' to cross of my to do list ....

I'm at Joe's right now waiting for him to get off duty. I love Bradley and I will love it even MORE when rush is over if that is possible. I've been drinking. I talk like a little kid when I'm drunk, ah well. I had a fun night. I did kareoke in the quad with SAE and Denise. I felt bad for the Rho Gammas cuz not a lot of people were there. But SAE was and I was and Denise was and later Laura and Suzie were. And that rocked. YOU'VE LOST THAT LOVING FEEEEELING .... Good times good times let them roll. Okay anyways then Denise and I and Bug drank at his house and I added at least one quote to the list of my dumbass remarks. But you guys know that you love them. Then Laura came by and I love her. We had a good conversation. I love good conversations. Then I started to miss Jamie really bad so i texted her telling her that I love her and hoping she was alive from her drinking contest. She was so yay. I heart her. And Bug's angels. I love that facebook group. Hurrah. Anyways then I walked with larua by sae and we stopped in shhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. I wasnt with ne freshman girls though. And Laura and I talked with Katie G! And Cassidy. And now Joe is back and Ingrisano is gone for the night ......


GOTTA GO I love you alllllllllllll

Bug's Angels! I love Bradley and my girls
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