Holy Crap ... I believe that is the sentiment for the night over all.

Summary of the Dan Band Concert adventure:
- Sara's car dies right in front of my house and proceeds to be a complete bitch
- We pick up Panera and down it quick to leave semi on time for the show
- Once navigating (succesfully!) downtown we realize the tickets are in Lisa's purse .... in Denise's car ... in front of my house
- Turn around get only semi lost and make it back to FoPo and yet *again* down to the city with miraculously time to spare
- I am a dumbass and have my camera in my purse and therefore have to pay $5 for them to hold it for me at the desk. :(
- Wait around for the Dan Band to finally get onstage while surrounded by people WAY to old to be drinking that much and hitting on young boys
- Manage to assign Denise and I new nicknames: Big Bowl of Crazy (BC for short) and MILF respectively. Hey, I suppose it could be worse.
- Got on the road back home, stopped at 7-11, drank up that soda like it was the first of my life, and now I am finally ready to pass the hell out.

*Whew* ... but despite all the craziness the night was a fucking blast. I love The Dan Band and it was all so completely worth it. I love my girls! I can't wait for Bradley, but we already knew that.

I have been so fucking productive recently. For once I feel like I have my life in order. I'm on top of all my appintments/shopping/friends/misc for once. And am thinking it's too good to be true and something ridiculous should come up soon to completely screw me over. But til lthen I'll enjoy the wave of productivity.

Continuing the 'holy crap' ness of today ... Britney Mosely facebooked me today. Holy Crap because 1) I haven't talked to her since 7th grade and 2) Mary Rehor and I were *just* talking about/wondering about her the other night. What are the odds she'd randomly friend me 2 days later? I'm a little freaked out, not gonna lie. And then I got to thinking just how LONG ago grade school was. And how much I've grown since then. So yet again ... Holy Crap!

I finally caved and sent my freshman year pictures in to be developed. I'm spending way to much money on them. But I just need to do it. Because I am irrational and have to have things my way. *Please let me find a semi decent job in Peoria*

Well, time for this soccer mom to pass the fuck out. Maybe I'll just sleep right through till I need to go to the Disney Store at 6pm tomorrow ...

I. am. so. FLIPPIN'. excitedtobegettingbacktoBradley!!!

After conversations with Denise, Joe, and Bug tonight, I am looking forward to going back for so many reasons :) The countdown is getting shorter fast, and I've still got a lot to do here at home before I'm ready to leave but I can't wait for the day to come! The closer it gets the more worried I'm becoming about the stupid rush rules. For example Megan Musselman facebook friended me today ... but am I allowed to accept her? And how ridiculous is it that I need to check on that? The first few weeks will be rough, not being able to party with Jamie, Kate, and Sara. I know I'll survive (although Denise might not ;) JK) It's just going to be FREAKING ANNOYING!!! But at this moment in time I could care less, I just can't wait to head back down to Bradley!!!

Well, I haven't been up to anything terribly exciting recently. Sunday I went with Joe to his uncle's birthday celebration at his grandparents. Swam in the lake which was nice on that 106 degree day. We were in the water for about 3 hours! From there I headed to Maria's and stayed there till Monday. I missed her, she's been gone in NJ the past couple weeks. Monday and Tuesday I didn't do much of anything, except BUY DANE COOK!!! Which I can't watch until the girls get together but I bought it all the same lol. Wednesday I hung out with Mary Rehor and we joint stalked grade school acquaintences through facebook and myspace. Sounds pathetic, and well, it kinda was, but we enjoyed reminicing so shut up haha. Joe came over later that night and we watched another Bond movie. Which brings us to today, I was supposed to work [insert rambling complaint about the disney store] but I didn't. But instead I got ice cream with Caryn and we went shopping at Target!

The DAN BAND CONCERT is tomorrow and I can't wait!!! Tomorrow will be insanely out of order. It's gonna be great :)!

Holy Crap. I arrived home about 1:15 am to the tail end of my parents 8-track party. Yes, they had an 8-track party. 2nd annual actually. I was told I needed to sit out and visit with them by my drunk aunt. So I did. And .... well after tonight I DEFINITELY know where the hell I get it from! I just couldn't stop laughing. The slurring, and the stories, and omg the JOKES!

Aunt Bridget (in the middle of a joke): So this guy had a hard-on [looks at me] oh, sorry! ... that's an erection.

I think that while they were drinking they forgot that I was 19 and have a boyfriend. I probably know what a hardon is.

30 minutes of pure drunken family entertainment.

So BESIDES that, I saw the Bradley crew tonight which was great. It had been nearly 2 weeks so it was nice to hang out again. I cannot WAIT to get back at this point. I am looking forward to EVERYTHING about Bradley, even the crappy parts (which there aren't many of). Time can't move fast enough in my opinion. Although, this year is going to be SO different than last on so many different levels. It kinda unnerves me, but I know that it will be for the best. And no matter what my girls will be there so hey, what can be wrong when I've got Jamie, Denise, Katie, Sara, and even Lisa (who is a psuedo Bradley gal). Thank God for them.

You know what turns me on? ...... Interjections! Oooooooh yeah!

wow. what a random friar extravaganza! ... and ... I ... didn't really enjoy it. Me, former obsessed with high school Mary. Weird.

Well, that's a lie. I DID really like catching up with some friends I hadn't seen in way too long and hanging out with the ones that I have managed to see. But beyond that ... well it was just weird and awkward. And not the kind of awkward that I thrive in, but the kind I dislike. So many Fenwick kids, and people I thought I should be looking forward to seeing, but then I thought about it and I haven't talked to any of them in 6 months or more, and ... it's just .... awkward. Blah.

And I so MEGA-ly broke my diet today. Like, I disgust myself.

But I ho-downed it with Mel and it had been WAY too long!!! So the night was DEFINITELY not a complete waste.

Man, yesterday I played Super Mario Brothers for SNES with Joe and he showed me the secret world IN star world. A secret world IN a secret world .... that I NEVER knew about when me and my brother thought we had beat the game as kids. It's like my whole childhood was false. I was seriously upset for like 2 minutes.

I am very very ready for the summer to be over. There are still things to look forward to like Dan Band and Dane Cook and making a little more money and seeing Johanna and Chris when they return as well as (hopefully) continuing seeing a few people from around here. But I really just want all that to be over and be heading back to Peoria. Things are just so much .... simpler? there. I don't think simple is the word I'm looking for ... better? nope that's not it .... easier? No I guess not .... I don't know. But it's just what I'm itching for. All my friends surrounding me, it's hard to NOT hang out with them. As opposed to here where it seems I go weeks without seeing my friends from home OR from school. Who the hell DO I see? Joe I guess. Well I dunno, just looking forward to school. It's time ...

Georgia0515: Well, Ms Mary, there's nothing in the WORLD like your AIM profile...
Georgia0515: like seriously, you're at the top of my buddy list just because I know i can always count on MaryFeelsJstRght for an absolutlely fantastic quote whenever I need it
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YaY! :) Thanks Georgia. That made my night. Well, that and taking a nap after working 9-5. And talking to the wonderful and HIGHLY missed Johanna Iwanicki for an hour. All in all a very good day today. Plus, yesterday I got my first check from Stewart Communications, and they didn't take out taxes so i got a NICE paycheck so I have the means to be completely out of debt now!!! :) A VERY good thing.

Other than that, still counting down the days to Bradley and until then trying to see those so called friends i've been told I have around here ;) Went to see Charlie and the Chocolate Factory yesterday with Marty, Phine, and Ashley. It was great seeing them and finally seeing the movie.

So despite my 6-10 pm nap I'm pretty tired so with that I shall leave you.

Well, I finished Harry Potter ... and bawled like a baby. I don't care what you think of that. So there!

I can't even put into words a reaction to the 6th HP Book, just an intense emotional reaction that I can't verbalize. Somehow the fictionality of the book just won't register in my mind.

And my sadness because of the HP world, is running into reality and making me overly sad about silly things that shouldn't even matter to me that much ...

On that note, I really really really really am disliking this summer because it seems recently I haven't been seeing many friends that I meant to see this summer and restrengthen bonds with. Instead I think I am farther than ever with a lot of people that I would have died for during high school. That is somewhat annoying. But at least I have my Bradley crew (who I also don't see enough of, but that will be remedied in 28 days). I guess I'm a little dissapointed in others, but mostly in myself for not reaching out enough. Not calling people I want to be spending time with, not spending random time with Walters, Mark, and especially Marty. Not talking to Maria while she's in NJ despite her texts, not calling Johanna or Chris enough. And countless other things. Am I sad because of this or because of Harry Potter? And is it sad that I am having trouble seperating the feelings?

Wow, almost a week of no updates! That might be some sort of summer time record. Well, what's been going on in the world of Mary?

I worked at Stewert Communications (the PR Firm) downtown Thursday and Friday. And it turns out I will be working there once or twice a week until I go back to school. So that is a big relief for my bank account. And my hours at the Disney store are becoming a bit more frequent so things might be working out ... Plus my mom wiped the debts I owe to her so that helps A LOT!!! I still need to find a reliable job in Peoria, but that should be doable.

Friday Jamie had us over for dinner. Joe came with which was nice since he doesn't hang out with us that often. A night that I spend with Jamie and/0r crew this summer is never bad. Well, except for inhaling ash and tin foil. I think that her hookah is mad at me for some reason! What did I ever do to it, huh?? lol On that note ... OFFICIALLY ONE MONTH UNTIL BRADLEY!!!

My mom and dad have a wedding on the Saturday I go back so they wanted me to wait until Sunday to go back. But since I am irrational and feel that I can't wait another day to go down I think that I am going to follow Denise down on Saturday. I might be pathetic, but I don't care :)

Sunday I got to have my every week and a half ish meeting with Caryn :) We went to LaGrange and saw "the interpreter" I really liked it! And I paid with quarters, muy classy. How did it get that I don't see Caryn nearly everyday? I'm pretty sure that was what the beginning of my summer was. I'm always glad to see her though, I love Caryn Lichtenberg :)

Monday Joe came by, we went to Polar Bear and just hung out at my house. Joe came over again yesterday (it was our 5 month anniversary), we got dinner at Portillo's and then went to Circle Lanes to bowl for a doller. Yes ... he beat me ... 3 times ... damnit! lol I was really close that second game!!! We ran into Mary Rehor there so that was cool, I'm getting together with her and St. B's kids later tonight which should be nice. The past few days with Joe have been really good. I can't wait till we can be back at Bradley together and not have to drive 20/25 minutes to see each other. Although that is lucky I know, some couples have hours between them at home.

I really really really miss Chris and Johanna. I feel like this summer has been so different. I mean, usually I would be spending every other night in Chris's basement or driving around or visiting Wheaton or something. I miss that.

Well, I guess that's it for me ... Final note: Harry Potter comes out FRIDAY!!! :)!!!

Holy crap. My friends and I are so damn lucky to have each other. I hate only seeing Jamie, Denise, Kate, and Sara every other weekend or so. I can't wait until we are all reunited Peoria style oh so soon. I love all you girls.

Dan Band tickets are purchased!!!! YESSSSSSSSSSSSS!

Harry Potter: The Half Blood Prince in a week!!!

I got a check from the Disney store today! I don't feel completely worthless financiallyfor the moment!

I worked downtown ACTUALLY making money from 9-5 today! Thank God!

Jamie BBQ ness tomorrow, score!

I relooked at my schedule for next semeste and I only have one 11am class Mondays and Fridays. How did I not realize/remember that till now. That rocks!!!

Sleepy time ...

Okay, first before everything else, listen to this and tell me it's not really really weird ...
From time to time I have been glancing back to "a year ago today in my blog" since I had lots of time last summer and wrote just about everyday (completely different than this summer ... oh wait ...) ANYway I looked back to today and a few things really freaked me out. First of all I was talking of seeing Mary Rehor soon and I really need to do that THIS summer. I had just started to feel good about my diet and everything this time last summer and I'm at the same point this summer really. I realize those things don't sound very thrilling or weird but the REALLY freaky part comes here: Today Susie and I decided to get together and get lunch since we haven't seen each other ALL summer. And this exact night last year Susie and I went out and got icecream because we hadn't seen each other all summer. One day of all summer. I mean, what are the odds. I thought that was the weirdest thing!

This time last year my conversation with Susie got me REALLY excited to go and start college and get to Bradley. This year it got me REALLY REALLY excited to go back there! My life is entirely too predictable haha. Not really, because in reality this summer is a LOT different than last, but still freaky coincidences.

So now that I've talked about that for way too long ... Today was an awesome day. I spent a good 2 hours talking to Susie and catching up which I really needed. I'm even MORE excited/antsy to get back to Bradley, if that was even possible. And I also am excited for all my plans for the upcoming semester. I have so many things I want to improve on from last year and I think this year is gonna be really important for figuring what I want. Part-time job in Peoria, going to church, finalizing major, declaring minor, getting involved on campus, spending more time with KDs ... the list goes on and on ...

On the way home from lunch with Susie I thought, hey, why not just stop by Marty's house and see if he's working or not. And lucky me, he was off tonight. So I just stopped by his house and then we ended up rounding up Walters and Mark and talking for a very long time and Gene and Jude's and at Marty's. It was so good seeing each of them. I hadn't seen them anywhere near enough this summer because I have this thing where I never call my friends to hang out. But I was glad that I managed to tonight. I missed them.

I also got to talk to Johanna on the phone for a bit which was nice.

And after that I headed out to Westmont and watched a Bond movie with Joe.

I can't believe what horrible horrible luck I had with finding a job this summer. I mean, maybe it was partially my fault for settling for the Disney Store. But what else was I supposed to do? I didn't hear from anywhere else i applied and how was I to know I would only be working 7 hours at week at minimum wage??? I know I've bitched about this all summer, but hearing the guys talk about their paychecks and hours really just got me going again. I wish that I could have found something to really earn me some money this summer. Oh well ... nothing I can do about it now ...


I'll leave you with a quote from last summer that will probably only make Johanna and I laugh ...

me: "So then he said he was just going to best buy best buy ..."
Johanna: Umm did you realize you just said that twice?
me: "said what twice?"

So what have I been up to the past few days? ... Since i'm sure all you lovely people care ...

Oh my. "love in an elevator" just came up on my iTunes random. Scary.

Anyways, as I was saying ... Wednesday I was going to go the Taste with Mary Rehor and people but has sisterly cheuffering duties to perform so I couldn't. But instead I got to spend time with the lovely Caryn Lichtenberg who I hadn't seen in almost 2 weeks! Obviously a horrendous state. Much icecream/italian ice was eaten and talk of getting into shape this summer. And no, those two things do NOT contradict! lol. I always love spending time with that girl. Even when we are doing nothing it ends up being worthwhile :) She headed home around 11 so I (of course) headed over to Joe's in westmont and hung out with some of his friends.

Thursday I was more productive that I have been all summer. Went grocery shopping for my mom, did some cleaning, laundry, and dishes. I guess I'm trying to make up for being a bum the rest of the summer so far. THen I went down to Maria's, we finally went through her closet clothes. God, I'm sick lol. We also ate a whole pint of ice cream each .... ugh. My stomache still isn't too pleased with me about that lol. I passed out early on her cuz i was exhausted for some reason.

Friday night I had a hot date .... with Denise!! We saw B*witched, she paid, I got to meet her parents, we hung out at iHop, she lit my cigarette, and yeah, I gave her a lil somthin' somethin' when I said goodbye haha. We stopped by Jamie's and all the girls got to hangout and smoke Jamie's hookah. I miss hanging out just us girls. I miss Bradley! But that isn't news ... lol

Tonight I went to Ash's for another Fenwick gathering. I got to hang out with Caryn and Melissa and Christina which was really cool. And also spend some time with Ashley, Aleena, and Ozga before the party started. Other than that it was sort of watching boys around a poker table, seeing an anti-christ, and being sober. I know I know, but don't worry I'm not feeling sick. Just wasn't in a drinking mood. I'm still Mary I swear!

I feel like a douche because I got a call from Chris while I was at Ash's. "Where are you" ... So I told him and asked where he was ... "I'm in front of your house". Damnit! He was in for the weekend so he stopped by. That would have been really nice to see him. And it made me start thinking about how much I MISS him! Really genuinely miss him. And Marty and Johanna. I miss us. When are we going to all hang out again? They are part of who I am and something is definitely missing from my summer without hanging out with them. So boo for South Dakota stealing 2 of my favorite people away!

I felt like there was something on my mind to talk about earlier ... but it has slipped my mind. Probably wasn't important anyways ...

Final notes: I hate the Disney store and I hate being in debt. Like really really really hate it. URGH.......