TWO YEARS AGO, I...
1. was counting down to March Kairos with Mel
2. was practicing for Me and My Girl
3. probably had a shit load of Quinn journals waiting to be done ...

ONE YEAR AGO, I...
1. was counting down to London with Mel
2. didn't know that in less than a month Pops would be dying ...
3. was probably in Chris's basement watching a movie with my clique.

THIS YEAR, I...
1. Left High School behind
2. found out what that meant and didn't mean
3. experienced a lot of firsts

SIX MONTHS AGO, I...
1. was beginning to hang out with Jamie and crew
2. was deciding if sorority life was for me or not
3. drunk dialed like it was my job!

YESTERDAY, I...
1. celebrated Mardi Gras in the middle of lent
2. Spent time with Joe
3. created my funniest drunk blog to date ...

TODAY, I...
1. Slept
2. visited Susie
3. ordered Pizza with Jamie

NEXT YEAR, I HOPE TO...
1. Not have failed Geology
2. Still be close to all the amazing people I am close to now
3. Be happy with my weight.

THREE ITEMS I HAVE BRAND-LOYALTY TO ARE...
1. Velocity (Mary Kay) FaceWash
2. Clinique Astringent
3. AIM toothpaste

THREE SONGS I KNOW ALL THE WORDS TO ARE...
that would be a lot but for starters ...
1. The Soundtrack to Phantom
2. The Sountrack to Les Mis
3. The FallOut Boy CD I have

TOP THREE LOCATIONS I'D LIKE TO RUN AWAY TO ARE...
1. London
2. Ireland
3. A beach, anywhere

FIRST THREE PEOPLE I THINK ABOUT ON A DAILY BASIS ARE...
1. Jamie
2. Joe
3. Denise

omg imdrunk so dont lisent to nethign i say or dont day im mjust gonna type and se what fcoms out . wow tha rporbaly diddnt make any sense

okay soyeah im doing out with joe and that is cookl, wait doing? i meant GOING maybe ... um yeah hahaha ok im me if yoy are reading this cuz i really relaly want to hear from you! esp if qwe haventt talked in while!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im me right NOW~~~~~~~~``

ok also i was walking home and saw adam #1 from delts and it was sooooooooo funny. funny cuz yeah ... im sorry if this made no sense, im fucking a lot drunk/ and im me to know about me and joe cuz u know u want to. umless ur in sae or KD cuz appparently all of them fucking know haha


ps i love cali. and i will miss you next semester ...

ok im drunk and gonna go wait for joe to be off duty and drunk im ppl and look at pics from teh night

I am going to fail my geology test tomorrow ... like it is not even funny. But even that can't wipe this ridiculous grin off of my face. I love my Muffy and I love phone calls from her and I love when she is happy and when I am happy and when WE are happy. And yeah ... this post is just basically for Johanna, because you rock. Have to go study for this lost cause of Geology ....

The answers to my lyrics quiz, just in case any of you are dying to know and didn't already google them ...

1. She's Got A Way ~ Billy Joel
2. Love Me Tender ~ Nora Jones (well ok, or Elvis)
3. Supercalifragilisticexpialadocious ~ Mary Poppins
4. Under Your Spell ~ Tara, Buffy The Vampire Slayer Musical Episode
5. What I Got ~ Sublime
6. Whatcha Waiting For ~ Gwen Stefani
7. The Blister Exists ~ SlipKnot
8. Shelby Lynne ~ Dreamsome (from Bridget Jones soundtrack)
9. Buenos Aires ~ Evita
10. I'll Try ~ Jonatha Brooke (Disney's Greatest Hits)
11. Landslide ~ Dixie Chicks (props to Fleetwood Mac of course)
12. Drinkin' Song ~ Dierks Bently
13. Don't Cry For Me Argentina ~ Evita
14. Truth No. 2 ~ Dixie Chicks
15. Breakfast at Tiffany's ~ Deep Blue Something
16. Anothing song from the Buffy musical episode, Giles and Tara
17. Wanna Talk About me ~ Toby Kieth
18. Never Say Die ~ Dixie Chicks
19. How You Remind Me ~ Nickelback
20. Beauty and the Beast, from ... well duh.



So ... time for an update, and as usual I can't find much to talk about anymore. Things are going really good. I really love certain developments that emerged this past week and a half ish. Then again there's always things to complain about. But the good has been outweighing the bad. And I just typed for about 4 sentences and said absolutely nothing. I have a huge com final project due by midnight tomorrow and a Geology test Wednesday that I am NOT looking forward to at ALL! But once those things are out of the way, it's just a countdown for this weekend, which shouldn't dissapoint. Happy Club on Thursday and Mardi Gras (the mid lent version) Saturday night. I'm kinda censoring myself on this thing cuz I don't feel like making a big deal outta the small stuff that has been getting on my nerves recently. I'm not just talking about one thing, but just a slew of little things that add up in different sectors of life. Once again, I am blabbing on without saying anything, sorry for that. Blah ...

Well I guess that's how I'll end this one ... damn, I think blogging writers block is setting in again, I'll be back with something interesting to say soon.

Step 1: Open up whatever MP3 program you use and add every song in your collection.

Step 2: Put it on random.

Step 3: Pick your favorite lines from the first 20 songs that play.

Step 4: Post and let everyone you know guess what song the lines come from.

Step 5: DON'T GOOGLE THEM! +++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

1. And everywhere she goes, A million dreams of love surround her everywhere, She's got a smile that heals me, Oh I don't know why it is, But I have to laugh when she reveals me anyway

2. Love me tender, love me true, All my dreams fulfilled

3. Just summon up this word, And then you've got a lot to say, But better use it carefully, Or it may change your life

4. I'm under your spell, how else could it be, anyone would notice me?

5. It all comes back to you, you're gonna get what you deserve, Try and test that you're bound to get served

6. Born to blossom, bloom to perish, Your moment will run out, Cause of your sex chromosome

7. Trying to commit to whats beneath, To find the time is to lose the momentum, You learn the lessons and immediately forget them

8. You know at times I wondered, if you ever thought of me, and I wondered if you wanted to be free, like me, and I needed to feel you and, I wondered did you miss me baby, oh yeah

9. And if ever I go too far, It's because of the things you are, Beautiful town, I love you, And if I need a moment's rest, Give your lover the very best, Real eiderdown and silence.

10. My whole world is changing, I don't know where to turn, I can't leave you waiting, But I can't stay and watch, The city burn, watch it burn

11. Well, I've been afraid of changing 'cause I built my life around you, But time makes you bolder, Children get older, I'm getting older too

12. It's not always entertaining, but you get what you paid for and baby it's free

13. It won't be easy, you'll think it strange, When I try to explain how I feel, That I still need your love after all that I've done

14. Tell me what's wrong with having a little faith, In what you're feeling in your heart, Why must we be so afraid, And always so far apart

15. I see you, the only one who knew me, But now your eyes see through me, I guess I was wrong

16. Wish I could say the right words to lead you through this land, wish I could play the father and take you by the hand, and I just wish I could stay

17. And God knows we’re gonna talk about your clothes, You know talkin’ about you makes me smile, but every once in a while, I wanna talk about me

18. Tears of joy and tears of pain, Tears say more than words explain, There’s no need for words here tonight

19. This time I'm mistaken, For handing you a heart worth breakin'

20. Bittersweet and strange, Finding you can change, Learning you were wrong

Chris - why is it that you can call me up at 11:30 on a Tuesday night with nothing but a few insults, and yet make me smile? We have a twisted twisted relationship ... for those of you who are curious, let's just say that the fact that his roommate's family owns a dairy farm was very humourous to Chris ...

So things are looking up, at least enough to begin to blog. I'll just start with a bullet point list because .... um cuz I'm lazy really.

I went to church today. The first time on campus. I was very happy and really want to continue going. I'm kinda excited about it actually.

I have a Valentine this year for the first time ever. I am very happy about that. Who'da thought.

I loooooooooooooooooove my roommate, sorry i was a douche this weekend.

um, stuff's going good, that's about all ... back the the weekday grind tomorrow, eck.

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY TO ALL OF MY LOVERS BACK HOME!!!! and all my crew here too :)

This blog is temporarily suspended until life get's less confusing ....

You know, you'd think I'd be used to life hating me ... but it always manages to find ways to throw curveballs at me that I wasn't expecting. I'm pretty much over stuff from last night, mainly I just sort of feel dumb for thinking that it was something it wasn't. I usually have a pretty level head on my shoulders and for some reason this just knocked me off my feet. But whatev, it just kinda sucks cuz this one thing sort of resonates beyond the one incidence and speaks for my life's experiences in general. Why can't I just be a lesbian? Life would really be a lot easier, damnit. Sorry to all of you who have no clue what I am talking about lol, just needed to vent. But anyways right now I've got tons of shit to do and this weekend our cvp from nationals is coming in to grade our chapter so I've got lots to do. Not that any of it will go right ...I have a feeling this weekend is gonna be a bad one ... but here's to hoping that it won't be.

I am a dumbass. I really need to work on some things if I'm ever going to be normal ... or at least somewhat function in a relationship with the opposite sex. Argh

oh my god. Someone needs to help us ...

G910 has been transformed. The days of swirving are long in the past, and Jamie and I are actually starting to act like girls ... and SAPPY ones at that! The friends seasons, Celine Dion, Chick flicks, and yes ... even Journey. We've even mentioned the V-day word in a non mocking sense of it. What the hell is going on?!?

I really am scared. Who is this girl next to me and what did she do to my roommate? And why the hell is she reminding so much of my own mood right now? god damn horomones!

On that note ... nothing too exciting going on besides all of that. Just a lot of homework and weekday stuff. I feel like I need a really good cry, but I can't even to get that out.

Ugh, the sapiness is overwhelming me in here ... and I'm still really nervous about a situation that I probably don't even have to be nervous about ... but I just will be until something else happens ...

I also have decided that I will never ever have normal sleeping habits for the rest of my life ...

I'm in a reall weird mood so don't expect to much sense making to come out of this one ...

Well for starters I need to attempt to tell you about my night out at Illinois Wesleyan with Ash. At least the part that I remember ... I got to see Johanna's brothe Matt which was really nice. I love randomly connecting with people. Like, when a really good conversation comes out randomly with someone you wouldn't expect to say anything more than "hello" to. Drunken or sober, it applies to both situations. I met a lot of KD sisters at Wesleyan and Halley and Sara took care of me later in the night when I needed someone. They did way more than they needed to, so I definitely owe them a lot. Thanks girls sooooo much!!! (even tho they will never see this lol) So anyways met a lot of cool people last night, including someone I recognized from OPRF and knew waaaay too much about for never speaking to the kid before. I think he may think I'm a stalker, whoops. Also met one of Whitney's friends from high schoool and apparently called her to tell her. hmmm, funny how I don't remember that. So I had a TON of fun partying with Ash and she needs to come back to Bradley so I can return the favor ;) It was really nice seeing Tim and Trish too :)

I also got an unexpected call from Chris today. It definitely made me smile. He can do the stupidest things and I will love him for them. So that was really nice ...

OH! Guess WHAT>!!>!>! My printer works!!! Like, it *PRINTS* things ... what a novel concept!!! It's gonna be a better semester ... lol

Okay, so I joke about last night and everything but it actually kinda freaks me out that I can't remember a large chunk of the evening. It was one of those mornings when I woke up and thought to myself "why am i not still at the party? and how do i not remember leaving?" Then Halley made a comment like "oh yeah, well that happened before you were sick" my response? ... I didnt get sick last night. Then they filled me in. Apparently I was sitting on the floor of the bathroom in sigma pi for an hour with Halley and Sara taking care of me.

I don't remember that happenening ................... at all.

That is sooooo weird, and I kept saying that this morning and annoying Ash I'm sure. But really, that doesn't happen to me ever. I think it was the cigarillo (a mix of a cigarette and a cigar) that made me sick. And it was probably the finishing a fifth of smirnoff with Ash that can be credited with the memory loss. So I'm not too woried about the future. I just went a little TOO crazy last night. Okay, done talking about it I swear ... ps look at my webshots pics to see just HOW ridiculous I was. Oh yeah, I also don't remember her having her camera out. at all. whoops ...

Okay so moving on from last night ... I'm back and good ol' Bradley, and for once I'm more than happy that the weekend is still 4 days away. Although there is one reason I'm looking forward to the weekend, although I wish I could look forward to the week for the same reason. Yeah that didn't make sense to you, that's okay it did to me.

So recently life has been so ... eh, I don't know. Really weird things that don't usually bug me have been getting under my skin. Like close friends will just say the wrong thing and it has managed to really aggravate me recently. I wish I could pinpoint this better, but it's just one of those phases I guess ...

I find myself hanging on a certain situation and that really scares me because it means I could get hurt ... But I like the whole butterfly nervous excited smiling at the name type feelings. But it scares the hell out of me at the same time. Ah well ....

Okay I think i'm rambled out now, hope I didn't bore you guys too much. I'm out ...

Okay, this blog has been boring even ME lately, let's see if I can think of anything somewhat entertaining today. Since I'm currently feeling sleep deprived and sick I'm not promising anything.

So ... I officially hate weekdays. There is so much homework and shit to do that piles up. I find one of my only motivations to get shit done is to get it out of the way so I have nothing to do over the weekend except for party. Ah well, at least I have some motivation I guess.

So, I've decided to combat my addictive personality. I started out with a month without facebook. Then I realized I was lying. But I do plan on cutting back.

Okay, so other than that ...

* Congrats to Jamie and Sara on a kick ass radio show time slot. Sunday nights 11pm-1am. Everyone reading this should tune into buedge.com Sunday at 11pm and listen to these chicks.

* So I joke about my messed up sleeping patterns, but I think I need to seriously try to get back on track. I slept through my 11 oclock class today. That is just plain ridiculous.

* I rewatched DeLovely last night. I forgot how sad that movie is! But I also forgot how much I loved it. I wish MY life could be retold to me in musical style! I want an encore where I get to see everyone who affected my life one last time. Not to mention I got seriously reminicent for talking outside Lake theatre with caryn, christina, maggie, and georgia. And random megaphone guys. Yeah that was weird ...

* Damnit, this is still a boring entry. I swear I used to be witty or at least entertaining I think. OH well.

* I hate getting hung up on situations that I know have a very good chance of ultimately leading to bad news.

* God all I want to do is sleep right now ... do I HAVE to go to my one-on-one meeting with Anita at 3? Yeah, Yeah I think I do.

Hmm I'm thinking I would have been better of laying in bed with Jamie (well not WITH Jamie ... oh shut up sickos) than writing about all of this. There's a lot going on in my life I guess, it's just not stuff that I feel like talking about on this thing. One day I'll write something entertaining ... one day.