Okay, so here is my attempt at a quote unquote "real" blog. Even though this weekend encompassed a hell of a lot, I dont know if I have anything to talk about. I would say this was both one of the best and worst weekends that I have spent at Bradley. I won't spend time talking about the bad parts because what's done is done, even if we don't know what that was in some cases. It was just a big mess of a night for all I think. Thanks to Johanna for being there even when she probably had no idea what the fuck was going on (which made two of us). So yeah, bad parts out of the way this weekend was way intense in good drunken times. Thursday night was Happy Club as usual and from what I remember that was a really fun time. Saturday Jamie's friend Matt came down to visit and we all had a blast (shh we're forgetting about the bad parts) See my webshots for pictures from that nights. When we take pictures we TAKE pictures! There are about 70 something from that night! So then onto Saturday night. After the roller coaster that was Friday Jamie and I decided that we would hopefully spend this one more lowkey. I went with Jamie to Theta Xi for a little bit, and then ended up walking and meeting up with Bug, Katie, and Sara to go to the off campus sae. I had a lot of fun there and talked to a lot of people. I'm glad that I ended up going. So much happened there but it's not worth mentioning cuz it will be a really long story ending with all of you wondering why you needed to hear it haha. Joe walked me home and then actually ended up coming back up to G910 and we just sat and talked until 8am! It was probably my favorite night of the weekend. Hmm ... I'm having trouble thinking of anything else interesting to talk about on this thing. So I guess I will leave you with this helpful tip .... There is NO sex in the champagne room!

Ya know ... sometimes my brother is just really cool.
He just make my day :)

rexkwondo93: everyone at banua is like wheres mary

Hmm ... I wonder if I'm ever going to blog for real and not just quote cool people.

Carebear9266: aww i'm shedding so many tears for you! haha kidding
Auto response from MaryFeelsJstRght: I fuckin hate people
Carebear9266: as a representative of the people... i'm pretty sure we ALL love you
Carebear9266: well at least me! I LOVE YOU MARY DONOGHUE!

Last night .... well let's just forget about last night. But here's to the fun part which was a fucking blast. We'll just have selective memory about that other stuff. Yeah, more later.

SpudtheMagicElf: how does mary feel just right
Auto response from MaryFeelsJstRght: I think we ALL need a Thirsty Thursday this week ...
SpudtheMagicElf: tru dat
SpudtheMagicElf: mary feels just right because she just does
SpudtheMagicElf: thats my conclusion

Oh I love Thursday nights ....

My roommate is insane. No, I'm serious, was she this crazy last semester? Who got her addicted to crack over break? Katie? Bug? Sara? I'm looking at you guys!!! Well anyways while Jamie draws me a picture and laughs micheviously .....

As always I'm spending the night time NOT sleeping, this is going to bite be in the ass soon. This first week getting back into the swing of things has been pretty intense. I feel like no matter how much homework I get done or how productive I am, I still have a list a mile long of shit to do for the next day. Oh well, so far so good and I'm keeping on top of everything, including all my Kappa Delta stuff. I just hope I don't lose my mind. As long as I work hard during the week and party hard on the weekends I just MIGHT be able to stay sane. Speaking of weekend mine are filling up RIDICULOUSY fast!!! Coming up, I've got Jamie's friend Matt visiting Bradley, then possibly visiting Ashley, then a head honcho is coming for KD and I've got meetings up the butt that weekend, then it's siblings weekend and Sheila is coming down, then I have one free weekend when Johnny and Dave will hopefully end up visiting, then it's ShamRock weekend which is one of our philanthropies which takes up a SHITload of time Ihear, then it's spring break, I'm visiting Johanna the 2n weekend of that, then it's Easter, then one free weekend, then parents weekend, then Formal (which I will hopefully know a guy to take to), then home for the musical, and then the weekend before finals ......

Did you count the free weekends? Few and far between!!! And Jasmine wants to come visit ... and Jonathan/Brandon possibly??? I'm going to lose my mind trying to schedule everything in. Okay, I really don't know why I just told you all my schedule for the next semester since I realize none of you care. My apolagies.

So anyways things are hectic this week. But for once drama is escaping my life. Well directly at least. There are still lingering "not in a relationship" leftoutedness. But very minimal and I'm not really letting it get to me. Which is better than looking for something that I don't need right now. But I feel like while I am experiencing a lack of drama ALL of my friends are getting it 2fold! I've got one who got proposed to (well ok not really but i THOUGHT so for a second), one who is annoyed with stuff that i love to vent about with her, one who is just insane (ilove u jamie haha jk), one who is having relationship issues similar to one's i've had in the past, and okay that is really it .... but all those ontop of school work and not having enough hours in the day, and not being able to sleep when i should .... I swear I'm going to have a mental breakdown soon! And I have so many friends that I need to catch up with that I haven't had the time to. Phone calls will be being made this weekend though. I'll break through this Bradley bubble! haha

Okay now that you all read (or didn't read) about my pointless and boring ranting ... I'm gonna try to go to bed ... Later Boys and Girls!

ps Dell still sucks because i STILL dont have a cord
and Word Perfect Sucks for being difficult with my Spanish homework.

STARLETTE0572: im hungry
STARLETTE0572: im really hungry
STARLETTE0572: like really really really hungry
STARLETTE0572: are you hungry?
STARLETTE0572: im hungry
STARLETTE0572: thats right
STARLETTE0572: jamie's hungry
STARLETTE0572: MAAARY
STARLETTE0572: had a leetle lamn
STARLETTE0572: *lamb
STARLETTE0572: leetle lamb
STARLETTE0572: leetle lamb
STARLETTE0572: maaaary haad a leetle lamb
STARLETTE0572: whoooooooos
STARLETTE0572: fleece was white as....
STARLETTE0572: [deep breath]
STARLETTE0572: snnnnnnnooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooSTARLETTE0572: oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooSTARLETTE0572: w
STARLETTE0572: .

I'm serious ... I think G910 needs a tranquilizer gun? Anyone have one? (not YOU jamie! haha)

Just for Jamie ....

FAMILY
1) Do you live with both your parents? not at Bradley (thank goodness!) but at home yes
2) Are your parents divorced? No
3) Do you have any siblings? If yes, names and ages? John, 17 (omg wait a second when did he get to be 17?? I was just 17!!! weird) and Sheila, 12
4) Do you have any pets? we had a hampster until winter break. Then it died. Geez, thanks for bringing it up.
5) Are all four of your grandparents alive? Nope. I'm down to one :-/
6) Who would you say knows you the best out of your family? eh ... they all know a different aspect of me. But none of them really really know me. Well actually, I take that back. Susie! But that's only because we are the same person

FRIENDS
1) Who's your best friend? I don't like to say that I have ONE best friend. That's putting too much emphasis one one person and that is getting hurt in the long run. But I do have a few select closest friends. Among them, Johanna, Maria, Mary, Susie, and Caryn. I don't know what I would do without them to talk to.
2) Where'd you meet them? Fenwick. Except for Caryn which was at FoPo softball. And Susie, I can't remember since I was an infant.
3) How many friends would you say you have? enough. I'm a lucky girl.
4) How many friends do you have that have been/are more then friends? umm what does that question mean? All of them? I plead the 5th? lol
5) Who would you say knows you the best out of your friends? they know who they are

MOVIES. TV, and MUSIC
1) Who's your favorite actor? I gotta say, I'm not really into the obsessive celebrity crush scene as some of my other friends. OOh! but I'll go with John Cusak. Preferably circa 1980s
2) Who's your favorite actress? Audrey Hepburn
3) What's your top five favorite movies of all time? Eh, I dunno. Recently off the top of my head I'll go with Garden State, Eternal Sunshine, Saved!, Finding Neverland, and Breakfast Club
4) What's your top five favorite TV shows of all time? Friends, Buffy the Vampire Slayer, Dawson's Creek, Old School Real World, and the most recent addition of the OC
5) What's you top five favorite songs of all time? I don't think that I could really narrow that down off the top of my head ... so I'd just say anything hardcore. SlipKnot, Ill Nino, Taproot, ya know ... what I've always liked ......... I LOVE YOU JAMIE HAHAHA
6) Who's your favorite singer? hmm ... oh i know! Kenny Chesney!!!
7) Who's your favorite band? Counting Crows is always a favorite. Fallout boy is most recent.
8) What's your favorite music video of all time? I don't have a favorite I don't think. but remember Lit's video from "my own worst enemy"? With the tacky bowling alley? yeah, that was a fun one.

QUESTIONS TO MAKE YOU THINK
1) If you had 10 million dollars to spend however you wanted, what would you do with it? I'd pay off all my schooling for the next years and grad school. I'd set up my parents for life, give my dad money to finish refinishing our basement, and ... wow I could go on and on .... I'm all with Jamie, let's make this reality!!! Oh money ... *sniff* I miss you

2) If you had three wishes, what would they be? hmm ... To know that I would eventually find someone that I want to spend the rest of my life with, despite the odds. To have the will power to resist unhealthy food. To make Jamie's thumb stop hurting

3) If you could sacrifice your most prized possession to save one person, would you do it? I don't know what my most prized possession would be, but whatever I would choose chances are I could do without it. So if I knew I had that choice I don't think it would be much of a choice, one person or many.

4) If you got stranded on an island no ones ever heard of with five of your friends or family members and only two of your own personal possessions, which friends would they be and what would your possessions be? Susie, my mom and dad, brother and sister. my cell phone (on THIS stranded island it would have reception lol) and music.

5) If you could be any type of celebrity (actor/actress, singer, sports figure, political figure, etc.),
If I could magically have talent, I suppose that I would like to be an actress.

6) If you could write a letter to the man/woman of your dreams and know that they will come into your life soon after you wrote that letter, what would that letter say? I think that this is a stupid question. If I knew I'd be meeting the man of my dreams soon, why would I be writing him a letter? And what would there be to say? "Could you bring some friends with you, I get bored easily" lol hmm ...

Well, on one hand the semester is off to a great start. I've been super productive when I've needed to be, but at the same time I've been having a kick ass time on the weekends and having an incredible time partying bradley style. On the OTHER hand, I'm going on about 3 or 4 hours of sleep from last night, yet I'm still wide awake at 1am sunday evening doing absolutely NOTHING online. But to be honest there is nothing else to do. I'm on top of my school work and KD stuff for the most part. Hmm ... new things to talk to muse about. Denise and I are gonna room spring semester next year! That will be awesome, I've just gotta find a roommate for the KD house in the fall. I'm really looking forward to living in the KD house (but NOT for leaving Jamie *tear*). But it will be fun to get to know all the girls that much better. What else, what else ... I've come to realize that I will never ever be satisfied with my relationship with the opposite sex. Like, ever. If I find someone I could be happy with I will feel restless. But if everyone around me finds someone I'll start to want someone. But I won't find anyone, or if I do ... well nevermind, it all makes sense in my head. I just really don't think i'll ever find what will make me happy. I don't even know what WOULD make me happy. I almost begin to think that a 'friends with benifits' situation could look appealing to me, but i know that if i found a situation like that chances are that I would not be happy. I'm just never happy, ah well.

So that blog got on a blah note, but actually I don't feel blah at all. I feel happy. Because I love Bradley and I'm having such a good time and I'm just loving it (hey! like the mcdonalds commercial!) Okay wow, I really need to go to sleep now, this is getting ridiculous.

Cheers to this weekend most likely rocking cuz matt and company are coming to visit.

So today is supposedly the most depressing day of the year ... yippee looking forward to that one ...

ps "see, this is white flowers and this is yellow flowers ..."
" No! Don't move the sparkly ones! I love the sparkly ones!"

I really wish it was still the weekend, because now I must face the reality of Sunday evenings and do homework and Kappa Delta obligations. Ah Well, here's to next weekend which I hope is just as good as this one was

Wow. I don't even think that you want to know about the night I just had. Not that that will spot me from trying to explain it ...

Well, the night started out innocently enough drinking with Whitney and Denise in the dorms, which was fun minus Whitney being a party pooper and not going to the keg with us *hmph* you missed out whit! Anyways, then Jamie and I headed to the Theta Xi off campus at Joel's house. We got there semi-early so it was basically just Joel and his roommates. We tested a shot that Joel's roommate Dave concocted which was delicious if I do say so myself. I saw the holes in Joel's house first hand, and eventually saw his cieling rain. Wow, sucks to live there! Well, that is unless you're Joel and you sabatoged the house before he left for break. Why else is his room untouched ... hmm??? Yeah, sure Joel, sure.

We chilled there as the party gradually picked up. Like Jamie, I've gotta give props to Cali for that beer bong. He took that shit like a MAN! We thought the night was blog worthy when Mr. Pathetic actually stroke up a conversation with Jamie. But that ended up being not even the half of it. When the keg ran out, Jamie, Matt and I decided to go back to good ol' G910 and continue drinking. So, after Matt taking 12 years to light our fucking cigarettes, since apparently u can't talk and operate a lighter at the same time (who knew?) we were on our way. A few hours and a couple more shots of vodka later (and the discovery of shots on the rocks) .......... The contents of Jamie's underwear drawer were being randomly displayed around our room, some ending up on Matt's head? I think that Jamie was licked a few times, we had McDonalds breakfast about 7ish, (thank you matt). There was definitely a sock on the outside door knob of our room which may have raised a few eyebrows. I don't think that I stopped laughing from about 2 to 8 ... and Joel slept through it all, talk about being passed out. Speaking of snoring (wait we weren't? shh) Next time Matt and Joel sleep in our room SOMEone's getting suffacated! Jamie, I think we need to buy pillows for the sole purpose of throwing them at snorers who crash in our room. Man, I hope Matt understand that the more we make fun of you, the more that we like you. I'm sure he'll have shit to hold against us sooner or later. (like ... bejamin?) I'm so sad, because this is just not sufficiently accounting for the night we had. I guess it's just one those bonds that Matt, Jamie, and I will never be able to explain (BRA!) ...Sipping wine ... sniffing panties!? ...

I think this is the beginning of a beautiful friendship ....

When did 2nd semester become declared find a significant other semester? I'm not complaining, I'm not really looking for a relationship right now. Not that I would resist one. I just don't want to look for thigns in the wrong places for the wrong reasons like I have been known to do before. But just as an observation, all my Bradley friends one by one are finding relationships. Which is good for them. But it's just a VEERRY strange coincidence.

Man, it's only been 3 days of classes and I already feel damn productive. I'm on a roll. Hopefully I'll keep it up and it will be a successful semester.

Well, nothing else exciting is really goin' on, so I guess I'll do some homework .... hmm ... or watch School ofRock or De-Lovely .... laterz

Holy Shit! Calm down there killer. First of all, the list was a joke. haha? I seriously doubt you have never made a joke against liberals. I think we deserve the chance to laugh at you guys too. I didn't hear about the movement to not "buy shit" Thursday or whatever. And if I had I would have said that's a stupid thing. I'm not happy that Bush was elected, but he was, and he's our president so I'll stand behind America and its leader whether I like him or not. There will be another election in 4 years afterall. But you are right one one point. Us Democrats don't raise families, what's the point of having children and having a family? We'd much rather just live alone and put all our energies toward ruining America. I'm pretty sure that America has freedom of speech for a reason. You may not like liberals, but there are 2 sides to every coin. And I know that Bush won the popular vote, so apparently America is "mostly" republicans. But if you look at the percentage it was pretty damn close to half and half. I think that the other half of society deserves a voice too. Just because Bush won the election doesn't mean that the entire country isn't forced to become Republican (thank God). And, on a side note ... if you really want to create more harmony, and a less polarized country, you woulnd't go around screaming at liberals. Rather, an educated conversation taking the time to see their opinions and show them yours and try to rationaly change their minds. If you're ideas make sense, then the person you are talking to should come to respect you position, if not agree with it. I'm pretty sure that the blame for the polarization of the country (which i agree that exists) is the extremeists from the liberal AND conservative side. If people would just calmly have discussions about issues and not let emotions OVERpower their arguments I think that a lot more would be accomplished with our citizens. *whew* That's all for now ... Geez. Remind me to never post a joke ever again. This takes too much energy out of me lol.

ps. I love You Ozga. Even if I do think you are an idiot sometimes. (don't take offense to that please , i'm just kidding)

Hmm, I haven't posted in a while and I can't sleep .... so here's some stuff that I'm thinking about ...

* Napoleon Dynomite is a stupid movie. Please tell me I'm not the ONLY person on the planet who thinks that?
* You know what's a funny movie? Harold and Kumar go to White Castle. "Bullets! My only weakness! How did you know??" hahaha
* Fucking Dell .... are IDIOTS!!!! aaaaargh! im me to hear the story ... it will be long and involved and end with FUCKING DELL!!!!!
* Classes start tomorrow ... yippee ...
* hehe I love my profile (Jamie you know what I'm talking about mwahaha)
* Jamie goes to playboy bunny websites!
* I missed Wonder Dog
* Hokay, here's the earth, DAYUM that is a sweet earth you might say ...
* I'm addicted to facebook DEAL WITH IT jamie haha
* I missed Bradley a ridiculous amount, and it feels incredible to be back.
* Jamie: "Hey, you see that girl over there? Yeah, she's your girlfriend"
* I missed Keystone ... oo you know what else I missed? Avantis, I'm hungry, I think I'll go tomorrow!!!
* What is it about my dorm room that makes me stay up allnight and sleep all day?
*and finally, how we must end everything now since farva cursed us .... GOODBYE!

Things to do before the inauguration:

1. Get that abortion you've always wanted.
2. Drink a nice clean glass of water.
3. Cash your social security check.
4. See a doctor of your own choosing.
5. Spend quality time with your draft age
child/grandchild.
6. Visit Syria, or any foreign country for that
matter.
7. Get that gas mask you've been putting off buying.
8. Hoard gasoline.
9. Borrow books from library before they're banned
-Constitutional law books, Catcher in the Rye, Harry
Potter, Tropic of Cancer, etc.
10. Money-making idea: If you have an idea for an
art piece involving a crucifix - do it now.
11. Come out - then go back in - HURRY!
12. Jam in all the Alzheimer's stem cell research
you can.
13. Stay out late before the curfews start.
14. Go see Bruce Springsteen before he has his
"accident."
15. Go see Mount Rushmore before the Reagan
addition.
16. Practice the phrase - "You can't do that - this
is America."
17. If you're white - marry a black person, if
you're black - marry a white person.
18. Take a walk in Yosemite, without being hit by a
snowmobile or a base-jumper.
19. Enroll your kid in an accelerated art or music
class.
20. Start your school day without a prayer.
21. Pass on the secrets of evolution to future
generations.
22. Learn French.
23. Attend a commitment ceremony with your gay
friends.
24. Take a factory tour anywhere in the U.S.
25. Try to take photographs of animals on the
endangered species list.
26. Visit Florida before the polar ice caps melt.
27. Visit Nevada before it becomes radioactive.
28. Visit Alaska before "The Big Spill
29. Visit Massachusetts while it is still a state.

Guess what??? Turns out I saved that quiz the blogger deleted on my computer. So enjoy (again lol).

ps I love Bradley and It's sooooooooooooooooooooooo good to be back! Indescribable in fact!


11 songs that you love
1. "Hallelujia" Jeff Buckley
2. "Breakfast at Tiffany's" Deep Blue Something
3. "Piano Man" Billy Joel
4. "Hey Jealousy" Gin Blossoms
5. "How am I Doin'" Dirks Bently
6. "Tell that Mick he just made my list of things to do today" FallOut Boy
7. "Cry Me a River" Lost Prophets
8. "Rain King" Counting Crows
9. "Latest Disaster" Stoke 9
10. "Mamma's Fallen Angel" Poison
11. "Pure" Orgy

10 things you look forward to
1. Getting back to Bradley SUNDAY!!!
2. Having a job and making money of my own
3. Visiting Creighton over spring break
4. When I'll be able to look back at high school drama and laugh ... I mean really laugh, not nervously giggle.
5. Falling in Love
6. Living in the KD house next year
7. Partying with KD girls especially Denise this semester!
8. my dad having a job again
9. People visiting me at Bradley

9 things that make you smile
1. Getting quoted in Georgias blogyblogblog
2. random ims or letters or calls from people I haven't talked to in a while
3. When plans to be spontaneous and random WORK
4. Looking at my pictures
5. Diana talking about sex hehehe
6. Visiting BFG shows
7. Melissa's obnoxiously big camera
8. Jamie singing Mary Had a Little Lamb into my Voicemail
9. "Wax on ... Wax off ...."

8 things you value in a relationship
1. Laughter
2. Trust
3. Loyalty
4. respect
5. understanding
6. fun
7. spontanaety
8. communication

7 things you wear daily
1. Make up ... well maybe every other daily
2. hair tie
3. shower shoes
4. necklace of some kind
5. earrings usually
6. contacts
7. deoderant

6 movies you’d watch over and over again
1. Garden State
2. Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind
3. Saved
4. Phantom of the Opera
5. Office Space
6. Breakfast Club

5 people you’d like to spend more time with
1. Melissa
2. Diana
3. KD girls
4. Maria
5. Mary

4 things you’re scared of
1. Rejection
2. Graduation and entering the "real world"
3. losing friendships
4. never falling in love

3 people that annoy you most
1. people with bigger than life egos
2. hypocrites
3. people who talk behind people's backs. ("a little gossip never killed anyone tho." she says to her self.) This includes people who use blogs as a communication device, I think that's just as bad kinda. and am I doing just that by saying that? Damn double edged swords!!!

2 special moments
1. 2nd night of kairos (come on, forget all that other kairos crap, that night was pretty cool wasn't it?)
2. Surprising Lizzy @ Borders (ok maybe that was just the most recent, but it was fun and made me feel cool lol)

1 person you could spend forever with
umm ............... *shrugs shoulders*

Damn, I am a sel centered brat you know that? I had a breakdown and then a realization about stuff tonight. Really stupid drama relationship stuff having to do with me shit. And I felt really good at the end of it. And then I turned on the television and was flipping channels when I found the Tsunami relief effort channel. And then I realized that while I am worrying about stupid shit that doesn't even matter at all in the long run, people are having real problems like losing their entire families. People are losing their homes, their neighborhoods, EVERYTHING. People are having to start from scratch, find new families, and find new homes, and find a way to start over after their entire world has fallen apart. And here I am worrying about who likes who or who means what to who. Talk about a reality check. Some things really make you think ...

Hey Caryn .... remember that time at Lucky Dog when you ....

hahahahhahahahahaha

I need a facebook patch! People with addictive personalities like mine should not be allowed on this thing! But I do love it so much :) Blogger seems to have deleted the latest survey i did ... I guess that it just didn't like it. Oh well, I kinda liked that one, but not the end of the world. I haven't blogged in a while so I feel like there should be something to talk about ... but alas my life is at a standstill. I get back into Peoria Sunday and i can not wait. Beiroute @ SAE with my crew here I come! I miss everyone at Bradley sooo much! 2 more days!

Man, these past couple days have kicked ass. Mainly Caryn and I spent them winging things, in the hope of having fun and having plans find us ... and *gasp* it WORKED!!! Sunday I wen shopping with my mommy which is always good. I have gotten so much more materialistic this year, ah well. Then later Caryn picked me up and we called Diana who was FREE (awesome thing #1) then we got caribou and sat around remincing and talking. Then we picked up Ryan and brought him to 7-11, and that marked the first time caryn and i had seen him since summer. Then me caryn and diana drove downtown ... why? Cuz we could. Then we dropped Diana at home cuz she wasn't feeling good. Then me and caryn went to Melissa's house and watched dodgeball and played parts of cranium with her and pat. Does that night sound random? Well it was, random and FANTASTIC! lol. Then today I went to Woodfield with Denise and Ashly from KD and it was such a blast and got me really psyched to be going back to Bradley. Then Caryn and I made the trek out to Algonquin to surprise one Lizzy Boden with a visit from us. And it worked BEAUTIFULLY if I do say so myself. Well, minus getting lost but shhhh you didn't hear that from me. It was a good adventure (RANDALL ROAD! AAAAHH!) And Lizzy's reaction at seeing us was priceless. We got to spend the evening with her and it was just ... YAYness! I love Lizzy! She says hi to everyone by the way :) You know, sometimes things just get under my skin, like things that might not involve me, or really directly effect me. But I cant help it things just do. And I'm glad that I have such close friends like Caryn that I can vent with because once I do that. The urge to blog about it lessens and I'm able to see things just a little bit clearer. So thanks Caryn.

I will be the change I wish to see in the world.

It's been so good seeing Diana and Melissa and Ashley and Elsey, and I don't know who else, but it's been good seeing all those people recently. I wish I had done more of it over break. Summer will be time for fixing that. But it's been really good seeing them this break :)

I have pepper in places that pepper should never belong ... and my feel are STILL cold. I will never ever not wear socks when there is snow out ever ever again. Happy Chris? Tonight was a fun? night hanging out with Johanna and Chris around Wheaton. I'll just say that it was a good ending to break (well the johanna and chris stage of it) and things ended on a good note, and not one where I was secretly annoyed. So that's a good thing ... yeah. That made sense in my head so anyways ... my little sister is out babysitting all by herself right now, this is so strange. I still view her as a little kid herself, and now she is responsible for another little kid for a night. Weird.

I feel at at a really good place after this winter break. Like, I know now that things will be how they are at home whenever I make it here again, and at the same time I know that I have good things waiting for me at Bradley as well. I feel closure with some things from back home, and a new disposition in sections of my life. I just feel good. And I'm excited for 2nd semester.


But Right now I'm so cold and I smell pepper ... ACHOO!

Oh it takes a lot for awkwardness to be reached in our group of friends. Touching and inuendo are so commonplace that it takes a lot for things to really be uncomfortable ... yet we reach those moments so often. Tonight was just like any other night really, Ozga groping all the girls boobs, and the new addition of playing 6 degrees of seperating the Fenwick dating game. We managed to link everyone in the room together somehow .... and actualy, I thrive on the awkwardness, I don't think it's awkard at all, I think it's fun. Does that make me weird? I love our friends so much. Ahhhh man.

ps I love 2 hour long conversations about Sex.

Caryn Lichtenberg is my hero! For serious! I love that girl.

M&Ms .... it's only the beginning! I would try to blog out what I feel about life, love, and high school right now. But it would somehow cheapen the conversation I had. But I will say that one thing I will never wish away from my life is these awesome conversations held with incredible friends.

1. What did you do in 2004 that you'd never done before? Graduated from high school, went to college, this was a year for a lot of new things lol.

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year? I already made resolutions for this coming year ... as for last year, I have no idea what my resolutions would have been. I probably wanted to lose weight, and depending on the time of year I was either really successful or a failure at that.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth? My aunt and Uncle gave birth to Liam. And I got to babysit him all summer! He's so cute!

4. Did anyone close to you die? Yes, my grandpa.

5. What countries did you visit? England! Oh the London Trip ...

6. What would you like to have in 2005 that you lacked in 2004? A functional relationship with the opposite sex

7. What date from 2004 will remain etched upon your memory? Super Bowl Sunday, wait no. It would be the last bfg weekend, or maybe something from London. Damnit, I had a lot of memorable moments!

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year? Succesfully adjusting to college life and keeping in touch with those close to me

9. What was your biggest failure? Prom weekend ... and ditching friends for alcohol over the summer

10. Did you suffer illness or injury? Just insomnia ...

11. What was the best thing you bought? My Laptop

12. Whose behavior merited celebration? not mine usually that's for sure ...

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed? no matter what I say I'll offend someone so I'll just say my own.

14. Where did most of your money go? Alcohol and food, notably Panera and Wendys probably.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about? London! And it was worth the hype!

16. What song will always remind you of 2004? ONE song? I guess I'll have to go with that song that goes "I wanna always feel like part of this was mine ..." and "Bloody Black BackPack"

17. Compared to this time last year, are you: happier smarter more agressive? happier? I don't know. I think I might be, but not more happy just different happy. Smarter yes. more agressive? depends on the situation.

18. What do you wish you'd done more of? Stuck up for myself

19. What do you wish you'd done less of? spent time worrying about friendships, if they were important enough they didn't warrant the worrying.

20. How will you be spending New Year's? I spent it with Jamie! Woo :)

21. Who did you spend the most time on the phone with? Probably Johanna.

22. Did you fall in love in 2004? I came closer than I had in 2003, I'll say that.

23. Did you fall out of love in 2004? I was hurt in 2004 yes. You have to be IN love to fall out of it though.

24. What was your favorite TV program? The OC! Although I was quite late catching onto that one.

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year? I probably should. But no, I really don't.

26. What was the best book you read? "If nobody Speaks of remarkable things", "5 people you meet in heaven", "Perks of Being a Wallflower"

27. What was your greatest musical discovery? Expanding my horizons to SlipKnot, Orgy, The Used, The Killerz, and FallOut Boy. (Thanks Jamie) and also the discovery of Les Mis and Phantom soundtracks! And .... should I even say it? .... BOMBAY DREAMS! hahaha

28. What did you want and get? a car

29. What did you want and not get? a relationship with someone.

30. What was your favorite film of this year? The whole YEAR?? hmm ... The 3rd LOTR? I don't even know what movies I saw this year ... Dodgeball? Why can't I remember seeing any other movies??? I know I saw about 20 this summer. OH OH OH duh, Eternal Sunshine and Saved!

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you? hahaha ... I was at Bradley and I shared it with Bug! There was an off campus SAE party, there was a lot of beer, Jamie and I met Joel and Matt for the first time ... oh and there was Mike ... and I was a shitty friend for that night ... but for the most part it was amazing :)

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2004? Psh, fasion if over rated. I just wore what I liked and what was comfortable for the most part.

34. What kept you sane? A few select friends ... and at Bradley the promise of Thursday aka the beginning of the weekend

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? hmm ... The Phantom! Or Orlando. Or Colin Firth, but I would never steal Colin from Caryn!

36. What political issue stirred you the most? Gay Rights. The war in Iraq, and freedom of speech. and of course there was that election thing ...

37. Who did you miss? Different people at different points of the year. But for the most part I'm happy right now. At the moment I miss everyone from Bradley. And when I'm at Bradley I miss the girls from movie nights and select others. But I'm never too far away from the people who are important.

38. Who was the best new person you met? Jamie! I couldn't have picked a better roommate on my own I don't think.

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2004: Just when you want something to happen it will all fall apart and Just when you think something can never happen it does. Life is crazy, unpredictable, and confusing and you just gotta take your best shot and see how this crazy thing plays out ...

40. Quote some song lyrics that sum up your year: hmm ... I have a lot ...

"And so we'll argue and we'll compromise * And realize that nothing's ever changed * For all our mutual experience * Our separate conclusions are the same * Now we are forced to recognize our inhumanity * Our reason co-exists with our insanity * So we choose between reality and madness * It's either sadness or euphoria"

"Even then you knew what you wanted * Even then I had no clue * I was just living in the moment * And the moment was all about you"

"I know you would be there either way, I'm so glad it seems like these times will never fade, So I'll tell everyone how much this means to me"

"I'm good to go, And I'm going nowhere fast, It could be worse, It could be taking you there with me, I'm good to go, But it looks like I'm still on my own"

"In a house where regret is a carousel ride * We are spinning and spinning and spinning * There's a hole in the ceiling down through which I fell * There's a girl in the basement coming out of her shell * And there are people who will say they knew me so well *
I may not go to heaven..."

"It seems like today I’m looking back * Well maybe tomorrow I’ll see further * Than my little head allows me to * I’ll be cruising then I’ll crack * Oh something better happen to these feelings * That I’m going through"

"It's not the end if you just say hello again..."

"Let's do the wrong thing and I swear it might be fun ... "

"Nothing unusual, nothing's changed, just a little older that's all, You know when you've found it, There's something I've learned, 'Cause you feel it when they take it away"

"so i'll love whatever you become, and forget the reckless things we've done, i think our lives have just begun, i think our lives have just begun"

"The past is gone but something might be found to take its place..."

Aladdin


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I need to be back at Bradley like now. It's not even funny anymore. I am so BORED at home! Why do I have to wait another 12 days?!? And of course, I spent the entire day in the depths of boredom ... and now when I finally can sleep to pass the time, I can't! The irony of my life never ceases to amaze me! I miss being at Bradley. I miss Jamie. I miss SAE. I miss being away from my family. I'm even beginning to miss class and something to procrastinate doing! It's better than the absolutele NOTHING that fills my days now! Okay, I think I'm done complaining for now. I'll try to get some sleep finally. If anyone figures out how to fastforward time that would be terrific, keep me posted! Thanks!

The President, the First Lady and Dick Cheney are flying on Air Force One. George looks at Laura, chuckles and says, " You know, I could throw a $1,000.00 bill out the window right now and make somebody very happy. " Laura shrugs her shoulders and says, " Well, I could throw ten $100.00 bills out the window and make 10 people very happy. " Cheney says, " Of course then, I could throw one-hundred $10.00 bills out the window and make a hundred people very happy. " The pilot rolls his eyes, looks at all of them and says to his Copilot, " Such bigshots back there..... hell, I could throw all of them out the window and make 56 million people very happy. "

hahahaha

I think it's really funny how everyone gets so reflective around New Years time ... I mean, what makes this time of year so special? Why decide to change your life on this day of all the other days? Every day is a good day to make resolutions and improve yourself. That said ... I'm going to be a big huge copier and do some musing of my own ... haha I love hypocracy.

My new years eve was fun, I spent it with my favorite roommate ever. And I got to meet her sister and her friend Lisa. I drank a lot of alcohol .... hehehe. But you know what? Alcohol is actually losing it's appeal for me. (Gasp, Mary what?!?) It's lost it's rebellious I'm doing something new and different feeling. I think I would have had just as much or more fun chilling with the crew at 7 Hampton Court. I wish I could like combine all my fenwick friends and my college friends and the sober and the drunk times into one big massive 'ness'. That would be such an extreme good time it is ridiculous. But alas, there is a thing called reality. Which is highly overrated anyways.

I decided to make new years resolutions this year. Because, well, I think there's a few things that need changing in my life. So, just so that I can't forget about them, I'll put them on the blog. So I can laugh next year when I look at them and see that I haven't done ANY of them hahaha. Ah well, one can always try ...

Resolutions '05
*When I'm hurt by someone and resolve to kick them out of my life, make sure that I don't invite them back in
*Lose Weight
* Don't ditch friends for alcohol or boys
* Hangout with more people, especially in KD
* Earn Money
* Don't drunkenly make out with boys I do not have sober feelings for
* Stand up for myself more
* Don't repeat the same mistake
* Don't be as obssessed with High School
* Stay close with Jamie and Katie