Well I'm home earlyish for the second night in a row. So yeah ... Hi Blog! Today was fun. Me, Caryn, Meera, Annie, and Georgia went to CPK for lunch, and did a little shopping around OakBrook. Then Caryn came back to my house and we finished watching America's Sweethearts, except I really took a nap. Then the two of us met up with Chris and Johanna at Petersons and had the WORST SERVICE EVER!!!! So we left a penny tip. Quite literally. And no I don't feel guilty. Then we did absolutely nothing in down town Oakpark for about 30 minutes. Oh the fun times Johanna and I can have walking in circles ... hehehehe ....
And now I am home. And have plans for every single day until the leader retreat. And am finding myself NOT wanting to be out every single second of every single day. This has been my life for the past week and I am feeling it catchin' up to me! Sometimes a night chilling at home with a good book and your blog are quite needed.
And now I am just telling you 'what I did today' again. I'm really trying to make my blog more interesting but I guess that for once I have nothing to talk about. Prom drama is LONG in the past, graduation reckoning has been done, and I am just trying to take this summer day by day and save the freaking out until August. So really, for once, there is no drama. Besides drama which has continually been with me since, oh I dunno, sometime in October. But I'm trying my best to just have it not be there. I don't know why I always try to make it so drama-full. Why can't I just FORGET it!!! But sometimes the weirdest things will remind me of it. Out of the blue things. And then the section of my brain reopens and I don't like what I find there. Too bad I don't write poetry maybe I could get it out of my system that way .. hmm perhaps I will try it. For now just trying to get out of the cycle .... so far so good ... but I found myself slipping today and I don't even know why ... and I swear I am really not making sense right now. I guess that with this lack of drama my brain is creating some.
Dear Brain,
Please stop this. A drama-less life is a good life. Please keep this in mind. Thank you.
Sincerely, Mary
Well I'm off. Seeing "Saved" Tomorrow. And doing drive in the next night. And seeing Harry Potter at midnight the next night. And going to the leader retreat the next day .... It looks like it shall be a fun week.
Monday, May 31, 2004
Sunday, May 30, 2004
thoughts of the day ...
Dancing in the rain ... does it really get any better?
Julianne's fiesta today was quite the awesome event.
Things with a friend seemed back to quasi normality which is cool.
I was psuedo at Joe O'Connor's since Walters slash Chris slash everyone there left me 60 minutes or so of voicemail ... it was very entertaining. And you'd better believe they are still saved on my phone so ask and ye shall be able to listen haha
And that is really all I've got for now. Tomorrow I'm going to work for a bit and then later, who knows? But I'm sure it will be fun ...
and I lost my yearbook to Julianne's house. I really really want that back :(
Julianne's fiesta today was quite the awesome event.
Things with a friend seemed back to quasi normality which is cool.
I was psuedo at Joe O'Connor's since Walters slash Chris slash everyone there left me 60 minutes or so of voicemail ... it was very entertaining. And you'd better believe they are still saved on my phone so ask and ye shall be able to listen haha
And that is really all I've got for now. Tomorrow I'm going to work for a bit and then later, who knows? But I'm sure it will be fun ...
and I lost my yearbook to Julianne's house. I really really want that back :(
After the day of 1000 parties ...
Party Hopping yesterday was fun filled as predicted ... in no particular order there were water fights, hammocks, FOOD FOOD and more FOOD ... grade school friends ... Vaseline videos, freaky lamp orgies, seranading by Johanna (Loving you is easy cuz you're beautiful ...) embarassing home videos of Chris (HE WAS A PAKERS FAN!!! THERE ARE PICTURES TO PROVE IT SO HA HA HA) ... Volleyball, interesting car ride conversations, moral discussions, me and Johanna almost making each other cry on the car ride, getting hit in the head with ping pong balls, bocci ball, ringing the doorbell at wrong houses, tour of Maggie's house which I know think I shall live in (I hope Maggie doesn't mind ...), height measuring with the tape measure that was conveniently in Walters' pocket, Walters in a chair, Cute Bunnies, sleeping on Chris's couch, talking with Johanna until we passed out, absolute nonsenes of a morning which is exactly what I'm going to miss next year, a burning Christmas tree which was very cool to watch, yummy chocolate chip cookies .... and hmm, I think that is it. Operation party hop was very much a success :) And Julianne's party is today so woohoo :) I love all you guys!!!
Saturday, May 29, 2004
Wow. So I'm graduated. It's all been said already so there's no point in repeating myself. Graduation was graduation like. I gave my hugs to all those that matter. It was sad to think that tonight was the last time I will probably see half of those people, at least for a while. But the people who matter will be around this summer. So the sadness factor wasn't unbearable. I got flowers from Mrs. Kecala. YaY! :) After a little bit of family time at home I headed to Caryns house. We all ended up sitting around her fire outside and it was a good time. Me and Chris got called an old married couple by Skryd. Just sitting around the fire and talking was fun. Those are the times I'm gonna miss. But luckily there are a lot of those times coming up. Tonight at Caryns was chill but fun, Chris don't worry, things won't be weird ... (Ps~ I'm just kidding Johanna lol) Graduation Party hopping tomorrow WOOHOO! Yay Us. And that is all for now ...
Friday, May 28, 2004
Blog Spamming
There are few things pure in this world anymore,
and home is one of the few.
We'd have a drink outside,
maybe run and hide if we saw a couple men in blue.
But to me it's so damn easy to see
that true people are the people at home.
Well I've. been away but now I'm back today,
and there aint a place I'd rather go.
I feel home,
when I see the faces that remember my own.
I feel home,
when I'm chillin outside with the people I know.
I feel home,
and that's just what I feel.
Home to me is reality,
and all I need is something real.
Feelin alright, headin out tonight,
maybe off to a dark driveway.
I say now some feel bored,
and some are lookin for more.
Well, we all just decide to stay.
We got nothin to do,
and I look at you
I see something that I know and love.
and with the crack of a smile we all stay a while
we know from home there aint nothing above.
Well in the end we can all call a friend
well that's something I know as true.
And then a thousand years and a thousand tears
I'll come back to my original crew
cuz to me throughout eternity
there's somewhere where you're welcome to go
I said it's something free that means a lot to me
when I'm with my friends I feel home.
I feel home,
when I see the faces that remember my own
I feel home,
when I'm chillin outside with the people I know.
I feel home,
and that's just what I feel.
because home to me is reality,
and all I need is something real
Home to me is reality,
and all I need is something real
I feel home
and home is one of the few.
We'd have a drink outside,
maybe run and hide if we saw a couple men in blue.
But to me it's so damn easy to see
that true people are the people at home.
Well I've. been away but now I'm back today,
and there aint a place I'd rather go.
I feel home,
when I see the faces that remember my own.
I feel home,
when I'm chillin outside with the people I know.
I feel home,
and that's just what I feel.
Home to me is reality,
and all I need is something real.
Feelin alright, headin out tonight,
maybe off to a dark driveway.
I say now some feel bored,
and some are lookin for more.
Well, we all just decide to stay.
We got nothin to do,
and I look at you
I see something that I know and love.
and with the crack of a smile we all stay a while
we know from home there aint nothing above.
Well in the end we can all call a friend
well that's something I know as true.
And then a thousand years and a thousand tears
I'll come back to my original crew
cuz to me throughout eternity
there's somewhere where you're welcome to go
I said it's something free that means a lot to me
when I'm with my friends I feel home.
I feel home,
when I see the faces that remember my own
I feel home,
when I'm chillin outside with the people I know.
I feel home,
and that's just what I feel.
because home to me is reality,
and all I need is something real
Home to me is reality,
and all I need is something real
I feel home
So My blog earlier was WAAAAAAAAY too sad. I guess that had been building up for awhile I just never had time to blog about it HOWEVER today I am not really feeling that sad. The fact is the past 4 years have been amazing. Every single moment and memory has added to the amazingness of it all. The memories I have of high school are going to be some of the most important of my life, and tonight isn't an ending to them. It's just a time to celebrate them! And besides which there are no goodbyes to say. We still have the summer like I said before. So let's have fun tonight guys!
We graduate from high school today ....
Wow. So today is really going to be it. Too be honest I don't think that I am that sad today. I guess that it can be part way contributed to all the drama that has surrounded me and latched onto me in the past few weeks. I know that for the most part I brought it upon myself, but still it has made me really ready to leave this place. NOT the people. But just the same old recycled places and feelings and drama ... I need something new. And if I have to keep showing up to Fenwick I can't help but be reminded of past drama. I just can't escape it. And that's what I need - an escape. Which I have actually gotten for the most part this past week! So I am grateful for that. But anyways what I was saying was ... I am ready to leave. But I wish that I could take most of you all with me. I think the moment that I will lose it will be towards the end of the summer when we all start drifting away to college. And it is gona be even tougher cuz it's not even gonna be like one big blow and BAM everyones gone ... instead one by one we're all gonna kinda drop away ... and that is when I am going to lose it. I really don't want to lose all of my friendships. I know there are certain friendships that I have absolute faith will last, simple because even if they did get neglected for a few months, I know I could call them up and we could talk like everything was just the way it always has been. But I do feeel scared abotu leaving some of my other frienships. Like, are the reasons that I am friends with some of these people simply because we spend the time together and we are there ... Can they stay friendships without the constant contact? I love our group of friends cuz I could seriously pick any girl out of it and have a really serious conversation with her if I needed to. And I would have complete trust that it would be just between us. I dunno, I'm really conflicted right now because part of me is ready to be GONE and part of me never wants to leave. I don't know which side of me is winning right now.
As for the friendship question though. I just don't know. I really hope that I keep every single one of my friendships. But I know that that is really unrealistic. I mean I am doing the same thing as everyone else and looking at my friendships from grade school and how they have changed ... and I don't wnat that to happen again with you guys. And I have both kinds of grade school friends ... the ones I was really close to and rarely talk to anymore. But then there are the people that I still occasionally hang out with. And of course there is Mary who is still my best friend. Although, we've still been through periods where we haven't hung out really. But we always come back to a random McDonalds adventrue or a conversation online or a random hangout. And then everything feels like it always has. I really hope that happens with all of my friends next year. And also speaking of friends leaving for college, I just can't really fathom it yet. I have been talking and talking and talking about. As has everyone. But I can't fathom the day when I will be out with JOhanna or with Melissa or with any of you, knowing that it will be the last day ever. Knowing one of us will be leaving for college TOMORROW. knowing that this will be the last hangout. the last trip to panera. the last random adventure. the last conversation. the last hug. I don't know if I can do it ....
I think I'll just pretend that it's not coming.
A note to all of my friends who read this t hough: Honestly, next year if you need ANYTHNG call me. Idon't care how long it's been since we've talked or seen each other. As Sarah put, STAY WITH ME! I mean that, I am gonna do my part at least to stay with you guys :)
As for the friendship question though. I just don't know. I really hope that I keep every single one of my friendships. But I know that that is really unrealistic. I mean I am doing the same thing as everyone else and looking at my friendships from grade school and how they have changed ... and I don't wnat that to happen again with you guys. And I have both kinds of grade school friends ... the ones I was really close to and rarely talk to anymore. But then there are the people that I still occasionally hang out with. And of course there is Mary who is still my best friend. Although, we've still been through periods where we haven't hung out really. But we always come back to a random McDonalds adventrue or a conversation online or a random hangout. And then everything feels like it always has. I really hope that happens with all of my friends next year. And also speaking of friends leaving for college, I just can't really fathom it yet. I have been talking and talking and talking about. As has everyone. But I can't fathom the day when I will be out with JOhanna or with Melissa or with any of you, knowing that it will be the last day ever. Knowing one of us will be leaving for college TOMORROW. knowing that this will be the last hangout. the last trip to panera. the last random adventure. the last conversation. the last hug. I don't know if I can do it ....
I think I'll just pretend that it's not coming.
A note to all of my friends who read this t hough: Honestly, next year if you need ANYTHNG call me. Idon't care how long it's been since we've talked or seen each other. As Sarah put, STAY WITH ME! I mean that, I am gonna do my part at least to stay with you guys :)
Thursday, May 27, 2004
Okay, so I apolagize that this blog has simply become the cliff notes of my life and random adventures, but I just really really really want to remember all of this. Every moment. And blogging is helping me to do that. Like that past week has blended into one massive get together in my mind. And that rocks.
So as for today, today was offically ofically for REAL my last morning in the cafeteria. The thoughts and feelings I had before still apply. It was a great morning in the cafeteria, complete with this interchange between Mr. Arscott and Chris ...
Lund, don't hit Mary!
Can I hit on her? ...
Yep, that made my morning. How could it not? Right so we learned to walk and sit and find our name today. And how not to walk off the stage. All very important things lol. Graduation Practice wasn't as bad as it could have been though. And wow. Mr Quinn. History Journals. I don't think anything else needs to be said ... lol. After graduation practice Me, Caryn, Georgia, Maggie, and Annie took a trip to downtown Oak Park and visited Borders and Prontoroma. Very fun times. I love it when it's just the girls sometimes :) And there are now about 30 books I must buy at Borders. Once again damn money not growing in my backyard. I found a very very good quote in one book it went something like
"I will always cherish the initial misconception of you that I used to know"
That is butchering the quote, because it was much more poignant the way it was worded in the book. But anyways it stuck out to me. Also, I was reminded of Lizzy when I found a new release paperback about 2 gay teenage lovers. It was SCREAMING her name. If I had the money I definuitely would have bought it for her.
OH! scary moment walking into Borders. Display saying "Eric Himan performeing Friday ..." WHAT?!?! there is *ANOTHER* eric himan in the world? That can't be possible! Oh but it is ... very scary moment ...
Then I went with Caryn to the ALL SCHOOLS PICNIC. Grade School memories WOW. I can't believe the kids who are in 8th grade now! They still seem like 4th graders to me! I saw a lot of old teachers and got free food tickets from them :) Andtrue to form I got melted popcicle all over myself. I suppose it wouldn't really be an all schools picnic if I didn't do that ... Anyway then I called Mary Rehor and made her come down and hang out with us. I needed a St. B's person to reminisce with lol. We had fun walking around and stuff. Annie also ended up down there. yay Forest Park Grade School memories. Mary graduated yesterday and I am graduating tomorrw. This is unfathomable. We JUST graduated 8th grade!!!! Like yesterday. It hasn't felt like 4 years at all. I also realized that I haven't hung out with Mary in FOREVER. I remember when I was over at her house so often that I was practically one of the family. Playing on her computer eating her food watching her tv ... and I hadn't even realized her sister has been pregnant for 4 months, her brother and sister moved out of the house, her sister broke up with her bf of almost 3 years, i didn't know ANY of this stuff! This might seem silly, but wow. I miss those days ... but things change. Which startles me back into the present reality of leaving high school friends for college. I agree with Sarah about fears about frienships lasting in the years to come. But at the same time I have faith that everything will work out. I'm sure I'll muse about this again later ....
After the picnic me and Mary had yet another McDonalds adventure. You'd be amazed all the things we've had happen to us at the FoPo McDonalds. Today we got into a fight with a 4 year old girl. But SHE started it I swear! Right, anyways then I went to work for about an hour, then came home, picked my sister up and took her to her softball game, which happened to be near Johanna's house so Chris and Johanna came and kept me company which was very cool. I came home hung out with Johnny and his friend Dave for a while ... and now I am blogging ... and then I am going to go pass out in bed.
By the way, in case you haven't talked to me in the last 2 days, I've lost my voice. A very not cool thing. But then again I think it is fate. Because had I chosen to, I could have been going to SPEECH nationals this weekend. That would not really have worked with my lack of a voice thing. And everyone keeps telling me I should rest my voice but i CAN'T there is just so much to talk about these days!!!
And at least blogging I can type it all out ...
Graduation is tomorrow. Wow. I'm sure an introspectice slash deep version of my thoughts will be coming soon ... For now my brother is being annoying and I should probably let him on the computer ... So I'll post again another time
So as for today, today was offically ofically for REAL my last morning in the cafeteria. The thoughts and feelings I had before still apply. It was a great morning in the cafeteria, complete with this interchange between Mr. Arscott and Chris ...
Lund, don't hit Mary!
Can I hit on her? ...
Yep, that made my morning. How could it not? Right so we learned to walk and sit and find our name today. And how not to walk off the stage. All very important things lol. Graduation Practice wasn't as bad as it could have been though. And wow. Mr Quinn. History Journals. I don't think anything else needs to be said ... lol. After graduation practice Me, Caryn, Georgia, Maggie, and Annie took a trip to downtown Oak Park and visited Borders and Prontoroma. Very fun times. I love it when it's just the girls sometimes :) And there are now about 30 books I must buy at Borders. Once again damn money not growing in my backyard. I found a very very good quote in one book it went something like
"I will always cherish the initial misconception of you that I used to know"
That is butchering the quote, because it was much more poignant the way it was worded in the book. But anyways it stuck out to me. Also, I was reminded of Lizzy when I found a new release paperback about 2 gay teenage lovers. It was SCREAMING her name. If I had the money I definuitely would have bought it for her.
OH! scary moment walking into Borders. Display saying "Eric Himan performeing Friday ..." WHAT?!?! there is *ANOTHER* eric himan in the world? That can't be possible! Oh but it is ... very scary moment ...
Then I went with Caryn to the ALL SCHOOLS PICNIC. Grade School memories WOW. I can't believe the kids who are in 8th grade now! They still seem like 4th graders to me! I saw a lot of old teachers and got free food tickets from them :) Andtrue to form I got melted popcicle all over myself. I suppose it wouldn't really be an all schools picnic if I didn't do that ... Anyway then I called Mary Rehor and made her come down and hang out with us. I needed a St. B's person to reminisce with lol. We had fun walking around and stuff. Annie also ended up down there. yay Forest Park Grade School memories. Mary graduated yesterday and I am graduating tomorrw. This is unfathomable. We JUST graduated 8th grade!!!! Like yesterday. It hasn't felt like 4 years at all. I also realized that I haven't hung out with Mary in FOREVER. I remember when I was over at her house so often that I was practically one of the family. Playing on her computer eating her food watching her tv ... and I hadn't even realized her sister has been pregnant for 4 months, her brother and sister moved out of the house, her sister broke up with her bf of almost 3 years, i didn't know ANY of this stuff! This might seem silly, but wow. I miss those days ... but things change. Which startles me back into the present reality of leaving high school friends for college. I agree with Sarah about fears about frienships lasting in the years to come. But at the same time I have faith that everything will work out. I'm sure I'll muse about this again later ....
After the picnic me and Mary had yet another McDonalds adventure. You'd be amazed all the things we've had happen to us at the FoPo McDonalds. Today we got into a fight with a 4 year old girl. But SHE started it I swear! Right, anyways then I went to work for about an hour, then came home, picked my sister up and took her to her softball game, which happened to be near Johanna's house so Chris and Johanna came and kept me company which was very cool. I came home hung out with Johnny and his friend Dave for a while ... and now I am blogging ... and then I am going to go pass out in bed.
By the way, in case you haven't talked to me in the last 2 days, I've lost my voice. A very not cool thing. But then again I think it is fate. Because had I chosen to, I could have been going to SPEECH nationals this weekend. That would not really have worked with my lack of a voice thing. And everyone keeps telling me I should rest my voice but i CAN'T there is just so much to talk about these days!!!
And at least blogging I can type it all out ...
Graduation is tomorrow. Wow. I'm sure an introspectice slash deep version of my thoughts will be coming soon ... For now my brother is being annoying and I should probably let him on the computer ... So I'll post again another time
So I realized why I am blogging so complulsively this summer, it's because when I look back on this blog I'll have a record of my last summer with all these amazing people and I want to remember every random adventure. So really, this blog is more for me so I can look back on all you guys with a smile, it just happens to be on the web so you guys can see it toO!
Well, yesterday was another day that seemed to strech for 3 days. Woke up SUPER early (4:30!!!) to go to the boat trip. I picked Walters up and headed to Chris's, which I couldn't find. I *swear* it was like the twilight zone! Apparently my brain works even less than usualy before 6 in the morning. Right so anyways, we eventually made it down to Navy Peir, 15 minutes early mind u! The boat KICKED ass! I had heard that it was gonna be a let down and not really worth it but that definitely proved to be untrue. I mean, there were pictures, yearbooks, friends, laughter, hanging out with Blake which I hadn't done in a while, talking, eating, DANCING! and most importantly HO-DOWNING ON THE ODDESEY!!!! I gotta say though when they started playing the first song, graduation by vitamin C, I was freaking out. I'm trying not to acknowledge that these are the last times I'll be hanging out with all these people. OH! and Eric Park getting Mrs. Zach to dance with hiM!!! Absolutely PRICELESS!
So once the boat time ended we (me, Chris, Walters, Johanna, Jasmine) hung out around Navy Peir. I went on the Ferris Wheel with Blake, Tutes, Julie Pudlo, Erin, and CAITIE FEE!:) That was fun. but I still want to know what Blake was *LAUGHING* about ... jk. Yeah, so then the 6 of us headed to Marty's house and woke him up (it was around 11 or 12) We hung out with Marty and his brother Joe for awhile, everyone else watched Band of Brothers and I slept. After that me Chris johanna walters and jasmine headed to Panera Bread for some lunch. After that was the point that I realized it was only a little after noon and I felt like it was the end of the day ... But of course more random adventures abounded ...
Johanna and I ended up seeing Shrek 2. GREAT movie, it's as good as everyone has been saying it is. I now know why Melissa found it so entertaining (FROG!!!), and definitely agree with Trish's new need for a talking orange cat in boots! Except I lost my voice so I couldn't even "awww". I'll have to watch it again when I can. Then Tim had people over so me and Johanna grabbed some Wendys then went to Tims. Fun times pushing people off the big ball, sure it's all fun until somebody falls and hits there head on a wall ... hehehe jk. Also some very good conversations. I headed home early though to try to regain my voice and not get sicker. I'll try to post later about something more meaningful than "what I did today" lol
And now I'm heading off to graduation practice and other stuff ... woohoo All Schools Picnic today! And true to the past it looks like rain. *ah* memories!
Well, yesterday was another day that seemed to strech for 3 days. Woke up SUPER early (4:30!!!) to go to the boat trip. I picked Walters up and headed to Chris's, which I couldn't find. I *swear* it was like the twilight zone! Apparently my brain works even less than usualy before 6 in the morning. Right so anyways, we eventually made it down to Navy Peir, 15 minutes early mind u! The boat KICKED ass! I had heard that it was gonna be a let down and not really worth it but that definitely proved to be untrue. I mean, there were pictures, yearbooks, friends, laughter, hanging out with Blake which I hadn't done in a while, talking, eating, DANCING! and most importantly HO-DOWNING ON THE ODDESEY!!!! I gotta say though when they started playing the first song, graduation by vitamin C, I was freaking out. I'm trying not to acknowledge that these are the last times I'll be hanging out with all these people. OH! and Eric Park getting Mrs. Zach to dance with hiM!!! Absolutely PRICELESS!
So once the boat time ended we (me, Chris, Walters, Johanna, Jasmine) hung out around Navy Peir. I went on the Ferris Wheel with Blake, Tutes, Julie Pudlo, Erin, and CAITIE FEE!:) That was fun. but I still want to know what Blake was *LAUGHING* about ... jk. Yeah, so then the 6 of us headed to Marty's house and woke him up (it was around 11 or 12) We hung out with Marty and his brother Joe for awhile, everyone else watched Band of Brothers and I slept. After that me Chris johanna walters and jasmine headed to Panera Bread for some lunch. After that was the point that I realized it was only a little after noon and I felt like it was the end of the day ... But of course more random adventures abounded ...
Johanna and I ended up seeing Shrek 2. GREAT movie, it's as good as everyone has been saying it is. I now know why Melissa found it so entertaining (FROG!!!), and definitely agree with Trish's new need for a talking orange cat in boots! Except I lost my voice so I couldn't even "awww". I'll have to watch it again when I can. Then Tim had people over so me and Johanna grabbed some Wendys then went to Tims. Fun times pushing people off the big ball, sure it's all fun until somebody falls and hits there head on a wall ... hehehe jk. Also some very good conversations. I headed home early though to try to regain my voice and not get sicker. I'll try to post later about something more meaningful than "what I did today" lol
And now I'm heading off to graduation practice and other stuff ... woohoo All Schools Picnic today! And true to the past it looks like rain. *ah* memories!
Wednesday, May 26, 2004
Oh wow.
I got an interesting email from Dr. B today. It went something like this:
Mary, you didn't answer anything on the 4th page of the final. (25 questions!) Did you realize this?
and my response? "There was a 4th page???" So yeah, what a way to end senior year. I wonder what he wants me to do about that ... yes I am a blonde. Really, what a great way to end the year out with. Holy Cow ... a whole quarter of my final ....
Oh man.
Oh well, a funny story to tell on the boat today ...
I got an interesting email from Dr. B today. It went something like this:
Mary, you didn't answer anything on the 4th page of the final. (25 questions!) Did you realize this?
and my response? "There was a 4th page???" So yeah, what a way to end senior year. I wonder what he wants me to do about that ... yes I am a blonde. Really, what a great way to end the year out with. Holy Cow ... a whole quarter of my final ....
Oh man.
Oh well, a funny story to tell on the boat today ...
Tuesday, May 25, 2004
Another fun night was had 2nite :) Chill morning, in which I decided that I HATE HATE HATE responsibility and doing grown up things. I will NOT survive on my own next year. I can't do anythign right on my own. This includes making myself appointments, going to the bank, going to the doctor, and many other things. I just want to be a KIDD!!!! *hmph* okay sorry whining done for the day. Ozga invited people over to Sarah's 2nite and it ended up being a blast. We helped Ozga label his London pictures and just hung out. Then we went to Jamba Juice which was closed of course so we ended up at Steak and Shake which brought back memories of bent forks and leprachaun acting and a very different time. That was fun. I got to hangout with Melissa which was cool (and no that isn't a stab meliss i really DID think it was cool) To name everyone who was there, mostly for my own amusement ... Me, Caryn, Ozga, Skryd, Sarah, KC, Christina, Randy, Meera, Georgia, Maggie, Trish, and Brian. I love love love our friends. yes apects of the night were akward but I suppose I had to get it over with, it was gonna happen over the summer anyways. I realized that I need to stop punishing myself. Goodness knows no one is punishing anyone else anymore. I'm the one putting punishment on myself. So I'm gonna stop doing that. But that was only a mini point in my day, hardly the fixation. And now it is getting later and I have to pick Walters up at FIVE THRITY!!!!!!!! blaH! But boat should be fun slash entertaining so woohoo.
OOH! and super excited cuz I think that all the girls are gonna do a TGIFridays get together before we all run off to college which makes me really really really really happy!!!!
OOH! and super excited cuz I think that all the girls are gonna do a TGIFridays get together before we all run off to college which makes me really really really really happy!!!!
Wow, I really need to change the way things have been going for the past few days. I think that I have gotten lunch and or dinner and or ice cream for the last week! My budget really can't allow for this! Let's find some fun free things to do on some of these nights lol ... Damn responsibility and not having an endless supply of money!
But it doesn't really matter cuz as much as I'm complaining this summer is off to a rockin' start so woohoo
But it doesn't really matter cuz as much as I'm complaining this summer is off to a rockin' start so woohoo
Monday, May 24, 2004
*another* fun day of summer. I am really lucking out here. But say really quick that I'm not sure how, but I forgot to mention the magician who was at Sarah's graduation party! Hilarity ensued I promise you. And then Sweeney had to point out how embarrased he'd be if a volcano like Pompei happened right at that moment and he was frozen in time watching a magician. Lighten up Marty! Have some fun!!! Okay anways back to today, after finals I went to Annie's with Chris Marty Johanna and Caryn, that was fun. Then I came home and wrote my paper. I actually sat down and wrote it, which practically never happens. I had forgotten what being productive felt like! But that was cool cuz it meant I could go out 2nite. So Johanna and Chris came over and after a lot of time spent doing nothing in my room and having Chris ... yeah I don't even know how to describe it lol ... we went for ice cream at Hole in the Wall and sitting in Johanna's car eating our ice cream proved to be .... interesting. Chris did some very blog-worthy things. But just to make him mad I don't think I'll tell you about them ... Well fine, I'll give you a taste, they had to do with using a banana and a ribbon dancer. At one point he was also acting like a chicken and pecking my face. yes that's right. You just had to be there, but on second thought, be glad that you weren't!!! lol Right so then I really watned to do SOMETHIGN besides nothing. So I decided to have people at my house. So Caryn, Jasmine, Annie, Nick, Ozga, and Walters all joined us. However, I had forgotten that it was a Monday night, so my dad was being pmsy and said we all had to be out by 10 ... so yeah my bad, but hey at least I got us all in one place together. But it all ended up being okay cuz we went to Jonathan's cuz he rocks. Maggie joined us there and we had a blast watching Shrek. I love these nights. I was very happy tonight. And even happier cuz i get to take back my post earlier about it being my last morning in the caf cuz we're all gonna go regular time on Thursday before graduation practice. Yay!!! :) Well I'd better go, I do still need to be at Fenwick tomorrow, granted not until 9 but still ... cya all later!
Man I really wish that I could say I am officially through with all school work in high school ... but I have one more paper for Dr. Pickering. And that has to happen tonight. Damn, but I am sooo close. I can *taste* it!!! Finals today weren't too bad. Considering I didn't study, Spanish wasn't impossible and English can only bring my grade up not down so Dr B gets a big yay. Also we got our journals back which was entertaining cuz Dr. B's little note at the end of mine had some interesting advice ""Pay attention to the way guys behave, don't put so much emphasis on what they say ..." Good lesson to learn, and very ironic that he chose that advice to give to me.
Today was oficially oficially the last one that I will spend in the Fenwick cafeteria in the morning. That is really what I am going to miss the most. And what the morning there it was. It started off quite tensionfully, I WISH that I had a knife big enough to cut all the tension that is around me. Blah for that. But seriously the mornings in the cafeteria are awesome simply because that is where I belong. It's where I can find all my friends and let's face it, it's just the place to be. "You wanna be where everybdoy knows your name" And that is the Fenwick cafeteria before school for me. I love that we've had those tables ever since freshman year. We've seen a lot of drama and pictures and laughter and good times and "studying" go by at those tables. And, yeah, I'm gonna miss having that definitely.
Me and Sarah shared a moment in the caf today. Yay Sarah I love you!!! :) And yeah, I defintely wish that we could just go back to sophomore year. We had it so so so so good and we didn't even realize it! Gym and Marcotte and, well basically mine and Sarah's entire schedule lol. Yeah little old ladies walking by parks!!! I miss that!
Guys, I know I've been saying this over and over again but REALLY this summer has to rock. I want random get togethers and fun filled times galore ok!??!? I don't care what tension or drama or whatever there is this summmer, it's not going to stop all of us from hanging out allright? At least I hope not.
Well, I'm done for now, I'm sure I'll be posting again later ... I need to do something to avoid writing that paper .... senioritis and procrastination right down to the last possible second!!!
Today was oficially oficially the last one that I will spend in the Fenwick cafeteria in the morning. That is really what I am going to miss the most. And what the morning there it was. It started off quite tensionfully, I WISH that I had a knife big enough to cut all the tension that is around me. Blah for that. But seriously the mornings in the cafeteria are awesome simply because that is where I belong. It's where I can find all my friends and let's face it, it's just the place to be. "You wanna be where everybdoy knows your name" And that is the Fenwick cafeteria before school for me. I love that we've had those tables ever since freshman year. We've seen a lot of drama and pictures and laughter and good times and "studying" go by at those tables. And, yeah, I'm gonna miss having that definitely.
Me and Sarah shared a moment in the caf today. Yay Sarah I love you!!! :) And yeah, I defintely wish that we could just go back to sophomore year. We had it so so so so good and we didn't even realize it! Gym and Marcotte and, well basically mine and Sarah's entire schedule lol. Yeah little old ladies walking by parks!!! I miss that!
Guys, I know I've been saying this over and over again but REALLY this summer has to rock. I want random get togethers and fun filled times galore ok!??!? I don't care what tension or drama or whatever there is this summmer, it's not going to stop all of us from hanging out allright? At least I hope not.
Well, I'm done for now, I'm sure I'll be posting again later ... I need to do something to avoid writing that paper .... senioritis and procrastination right down to the last possible second!!!
Sunday, May 23, 2004
Yep I'm blogging again today ... I lied when I said I was gonna try to cut back. It looks like it's just something I can't do. I just have to stop using the blog to say things to people instead of telling them in person. If you catch me doing that slap me. Right so anyways ...
MYSTERY SOLVED and I feel like a moron. Girl at volley ball game was definitely Natalie Skyrd. And I definitely know her. And wow talk about blanking out.
I saw Elisha at St. B's day earlier. And later I saw Mary and Ced. I need to hang out with all of them sometime soon. Hopefully a lot this summer before I leave ...
Sarah's graduation party was fun times. How could it not have been? I picked up Walters. I played in a park with Ashley for the second time in 3 days. I love swings :) Walters got kicked in the face by Ashley (ask him about his fat lip) Me and Jasmine kicked Walters ass in Foosball, hell yeah! hehe And then Walters picked his ego up by beating Jasmine in Chess. The way home was interesting. Walters couldn't seem to stop pressing my buttons. Okay, couldn't resist saying that, but seriously my hazard lights! my wind shield wipers! my parking brake! boys can act like such toddlers lol! And then there was my driving with one hand cuz Walters wouldn't let go of my other one. Collaborative driving is fun. Oh and I also got myself invited along for whenver the guys next go to the strip club, and apparently Walters is paying for a lap dance for me ... uh huh .... yeah .... Oh and I also agreed to a 3some with Walters and Jasmine, given she says yes. Which she won't so I think that I'm in the clear. So it was an interesting day ...
I dropped Walters off a little before 9, and I couldn't possibly end the night there could I have? Of COURSE not!!! So I called Caryn and we went to Brown Cow for IceCream. And now I am home and still not studying for my finals tomorrow. And that is just gonna have to be the way it is. I never made it to Ozga's which I felt bad about but it probably would have been an akward situation so it's probably better that I didn't But I love ya anyways Ozga.
oh HEY! and I got my PVC pipe from STOMP so WOOT for that. And we got all the girls to sign it which makes me happy. *ah* memories. ...
Well Caryn, you know what would be REALLY sad ... if I called you so that I could talk to you about it so that I could blog about blogging about saying that ... did that make sense? Good it shouldn't have hehe jk I love ya Caryn!!!
And since I'm NOT using this blog to say things to people because I don't want to tell them in person or online myself I WON'T say other stuff that is on my mind. Although just by saying that I might have broken my own rule ... oh well ... right so finals tomorrow. Should be a party.
MYSTERY SOLVED and I feel like a moron. Girl at volley ball game was definitely Natalie Skyrd. And I definitely know her. And wow talk about blanking out.
I saw Elisha at St. B's day earlier. And later I saw Mary and Ced. I need to hang out with all of them sometime soon. Hopefully a lot this summer before I leave ...
Sarah's graduation party was fun times. How could it not have been? I picked up Walters. I played in a park with Ashley for the second time in 3 days. I love swings :) Walters got kicked in the face by Ashley (ask him about his fat lip) Me and Jasmine kicked Walters ass in Foosball, hell yeah! hehe And then Walters picked his ego up by beating Jasmine in Chess. The way home was interesting. Walters couldn't seem to stop pressing my buttons. Okay, couldn't resist saying that, but seriously my hazard lights! my wind shield wipers! my parking brake! boys can act like such toddlers lol! And then there was my driving with one hand cuz Walters wouldn't let go of my other one. Collaborative driving is fun. Oh and I also got myself invited along for whenver the guys next go to the strip club, and apparently Walters is paying for a lap dance for me ... uh huh .... yeah .... Oh and I also agreed to a 3some with Walters and Jasmine, given she says yes. Which she won't so I think that I'm in the clear. So it was an interesting day ...
I dropped Walters off a little before 9, and I couldn't possibly end the night there could I have? Of COURSE not!!! So I called Caryn and we went to Brown Cow for IceCream. And now I am home and still not studying for my finals tomorrow. And that is just gonna have to be the way it is. I never made it to Ozga's which I felt bad about but it probably would have been an akward situation so it's probably better that I didn't But I love ya anyways Ozga.
oh HEY! and I got my PVC pipe from STOMP so WOOT for that. And we got all the girls to sign it which makes me happy. *ah* memories. ...
Well Caryn, you know what would be REALLY sad ... if I called you so that I could talk to you about it so that I could blog about blogging about saying that ... did that make sense? Good it shouldn't have hehe jk I love ya Caryn!!!
And since I'm NOT using this blog to say things to people because I don't want to tell them in person or online myself I WON'T say other stuff that is on my mind. Although just by saying that I might have broken my own rule ... oh well ... right so finals tomorrow. Should be a party.
graduation gowns?!?
Sorry Georgia, didn't mean to steal you're format. My old one was just too dark, and I don't like pink. So yeah, good taste ;) hehe
This morning was interesting, baccaloreate mass, watched Phine graduate ... gown fiasco. Perfect twist to our end at Fenwick, serious mis communication there haha. Anyways I'm off for some fun today. Yay Parties.
I definitely went to my sister's volley ball game today and had a girl wave at me from some other team. Pretty sure I was supposed to know who she was ... Whoops ... Now I feel a little bit guilty. It's a mystery ...
I am so with Annie on not studying. I have two finals tomorrow. I will most likely do very badly on English, but eh oh well. And Spanish it really doesn't matter how I do. There is just no point to studying. I'm glad that I'm not the only one who thinks so. I'm really not planning on studying till tomorrow morning. Because no matter what come Friday we'll be walking across the stage and graduating ... There still is that pesky paper I have to write for Dr. Pickering for Tuesday ... but I'm sure inspiration will hit sometime on Monday ... at least I hope ...
Oh and woohoo for flashback while reading Georgia's blog ... reminicing to my first of not very many football games where I met Georgia among others. I love my friends!!! I really do love our entire group of friends. Every single one of them, mostly, except for one ... yeah I won't get into the same cycle Caryn did at the end of her last post lol. But right I was starting to say ... I love our group of friends so much. Yeah, we're a dysfunctional family, BUT the point is that we're FAMILY through all the drama and the breakups and the fights we are still family. I care for everyone of my friend soo much and like I said before, I'm just so comfortable right now, I don't know how I'm gonna find a group of friend next year who I can just be myself with, random singalongs and dancing and wrestling and all. And I know that recently I kinda screwed up a few of my friendships. And just for the record I'm really mad at myself for that. So even if you don't read this or if you read this and don't care, I'm really sorry to all my friends who I've alienated and or betrayed in the last month. Yeah the blog most likely isn't the place to say it, and most likely it's not really enough, but I wanted to say it anyways. Enough said for now ...
This morning was interesting, baccaloreate mass, watched Phine graduate ... gown fiasco. Perfect twist to our end at Fenwick, serious mis communication there haha. Anyways I'm off for some fun today. Yay Parties.
I definitely went to my sister's volley ball game today and had a girl wave at me from some other team. Pretty sure I was supposed to know who she was ... Whoops ... Now I feel a little bit guilty. It's a mystery ...
I am so with Annie on not studying. I have two finals tomorrow. I will most likely do very badly on English, but eh oh well. And Spanish it really doesn't matter how I do. There is just no point to studying. I'm glad that I'm not the only one who thinks so. I'm really not planning on studying till tomorrow morning. Because no matter what come Friday we'll be walking across the stage and graduating ... There still is that pesky paper I have to write for Dr. Pickering for Tuesday ... but I'm sure inspiration will hit sometime on Monday ... at least I hope ...
Oh and woohoo for flashback while reading Georgia's blog ... reminicing to my first of not very many football games where I met Georgia among others. I love my friends!!! I really do love our entire group of friends. Every single one of them, mostly, except for one ... yeah I won't get into the same cycle Caryn did at the end of her last post lol. But right I was starting to say ... I love our group of friends so much. Yeah, we're a dysfunctional family, BUT the point is that we're FAMILY through all the drama and the breakups and the fights we are still family. I care for everyone of my friend soo much and like I said before, I'm just so comfortable right now, I don't know how I'm gonna find a group of friend next year who I can just be myself with, random singalongs and dancing and wrestling and all. And I know that recently I kinda screwed up a few of my friendships. And just for the record I'm really mad at myself for that. So even if you don't read this or if you read this and don't care, I'm really sorry to all my friends who I've alienated and or betrayed in the last month. Yeah the blog most likely isn't the place to say it, and most likely it's not really enough, but I wanted to say it anyways. Enough said for now ...
So no one told you life was gonna be this way.
Your job's a joke, you're broke, your love life's D.O.A.
It's like you're always stuck in second gear,
When it hasn't been your day, your week, your month, or even your year,
I'll be there for you!
(When the rain starts to pour)
I'll be there for you!
(Like I've been there before)
I'll be there for you
('Cause you're there for me too)
You're still in bed at ten and work began at eight,
You've burned your breakfast so far, things are going great,
Your mother warned you there'd be days like these,
But she didn't tell when the world has brought you down to your knees.
I'll be there for you!
(When the rain starts to pour)
I'll be there for you!
(Like I've been there before)
I'll be there for you
('Cause you're there for me too)
Your job's a joke, you're broke, your love life's D.O.A.
It's like you're always stuck in second gear,
When it hasn't been your day, your week, your month, or even your year,
I'll be there for you!
(When the rain starts to pour)
I'll be there for you!
(Like I've been there before)
I'll be there for you
('Cause you're there for me too)
You're still in bed at ten and work began at eight,
You've burned your breakfast so far, things are going great,
Your mother warned you there'd be days like these,
But she didn't tell when the world has brought you down to your knees.
I'll be there for you!
(When the rain starts to pour)
I'll be there for you!
(Like I've been there before)
I'll be there for you
('Cause you're there for me too)
Saturday, May 22, 2004
Another fun filled summer day
So I really lucked out last night I realized. That was a good three days worth of stuff in just one night. I'm getting spoiled, I'd better prepare myself for a few days this summer bored out of my mind. But for now I'm gonna love every moment of random adventure ...
I had another great day today. Didn't write my paper that is due Tuesday of course. See, I spent the morning wasting time around the house ... then I was talking to Caryn online and ended up picking her up. She helped me run errands for my mom and then we got lunch. Yay Caryn ;) I luv ya!!! Yep, so that was an awesome time, and we decided we're gonna spent tomorrow together too so woohoo having someone to drive around with. Sarah's party is tomorrow and I'm looking forward to that. We also decided that after graduation practice we are gonna crash the All Schools Picnic in FoPo so hurrah for grade school reminicing. By the way any othe FoPo gradeschoolers are more than welcome to accomany us. I actually have to meet my sister there anyways. Right anyway so after hanging out with Caryn I came home with FULL intention of thinking about starting to finish my paper for Dr. Pickering. Then I decided I wanted to burn a CD first ... and one thing led to another. And then all of a sudden Chris was at my backdoor. Uninvited. But hey, that' what friends do right? lol so me johanna and chris went to petersons and got ice cream (I've been doing that a lot recently lol) Then we wanted to watch The Truth About Cats and Dogs but Chris wanted more options. So we made him watch America's Sweethearts instead. Fun Times ... People must be so confused by the three of us sometimes ...
But yeah, I am getting more and more excited for this summer. The past week has rocked, and I think it's only a taste of what is to come ...
Talking to Caryn today though I got really sad cuz I realized that this summer is gonna rock and be amazing and everything ... but come August our friends are going to start dropping way one by one. And pretty soon it will be my turn. I really do feel ready to leave Fenwick and even the people. I need fresh faces and new drama lol ... But at the same time I don't know what I'm going to do next year. I'm not gonna have the support system that Ican count on here. And that means everything to me. But I should just stop thinking about that and enjoy these days. But I sure am gonna miss everything. I just feel so comfortable with everything right now ...
I had another great day today. Didn't write my paper that is due Tuesday of course. See, I spent the morning wasting time around the house ... then I was talking to Caryn online and ended up picking her up. She helped me run errands for my mom and then we got lunch. Yay Caryn ;) I luv ya!!! Yep, so that was an awesome time, and we decided we're gonna spent tomorrow together too so woohoo having someone to drive around with. Sarah's party is tomorrow and I'm looking forward to that. We also decided that after graduation practice we are gonna crash the All Schools Picnic in FoPo so hurrah for grade school reminicing. By the way any othe FoPo gradeschoolers are more than welcome to accomany us. I actually have to meet my sister there anyways. Right anyway so after hanging out with Caryn I came home with FULL intention of thinking about starting to finish my paper for Dr. Pickering. Then I decided I wanted to burn a CD first ... and one thing led to another. And then all of a sudden Chris was at my backdoor. Uninvited. But hey, that' what friends do right? lol so me johanna and chris went to petersons and got ice cream (I've been doing that a lot recently lol) Then we wanted to watch The Truth About Cats and Dogs but Chris wanted more options. So we made him watch America's Sweethearts instead. Fun Times ... People must be so confused by the three of us sometimes ...
But yeah, I am getting more and more excited for this summer. The past week has rocked, and I think it's only a taste of what is to come ...
Talking to Caryn today though I got really sad cuz I realized that this summer is gonna rock and be amazing and everything ... but come August our friends are going to start dropping way one by one. And pretty soon it will be my turn. I really do feel ready to leave Fenwick and even the people. I need fresh faces and new drama lol ... But at the same time I don't know what I'm going to do next year. I'm not gonna have the support system that Ican count on here. And that means everything to me. But I should just stop thinking about that and enjoy these days. But I sure am gonna miss everything. I just feel so comfortable with everything right now ...
Who'd have known that the song "Everybody in the Club getting Tipsy" could trigger such nostalga and such a mix of emotion? You wouldn't think so lol
I've been blessed with some really great memories in the past year. No matter how bad things seem I keep playing memories from March or May Kairos or summer adventures or Chris's basement hangouts or Melissa's basement fun ... just all the times I've been with my friends having an awesome time this year. London, Cast Parties, prom ... I am really really really ridiculously lucky. And I love all of my friends!
So Thursday night I went out with Chris for ice cream after finishing my english paper and turning it in. Yes it probably came up like 1/2 plagarized but I just don't care anymore. Anyway went out with Chris around 7 ... fast forward to 10 o'clock and I finally got home. Getting IceCream turned into getting ice cream, kidnapping Walters, then Johanna and then going to Mickeys and driving everyone home. I love random nights and I love my friends. And I still hadnt studied but eh oh well. It was a good Thursday night!
And tonight. Wow ... tonight was fun and random to the extreme. Just a list of where we went tonight. Johanna came over and we figured we would just play it by ear from there ... so we were driving to Peterson's for ice cream when we ended up behind Ashley. We then ended up going to Johnny's for italian ice with her and Aleena. Then we went to Tim's. Appearances were made by Ash, Tim, Aleena, Formanski, Dave, Tess, Sweeney, Mgirr, Dom, Barrett, Pat Locke, and Chris. Me and Ashley played catch in the park. Yep, fun fun times. Then me Chris and Johanna went to DiNicos for pizza and lo and behold Fenwick ppl were already there, Tom Nolan and Kelly among others. So that was random. THEN as we were eating my BROTHER walks in. Talk about bizarre ... Anyways after that we called Walters and picked him up. Called Marty and randomly showed up at his house ... and ended up hanging out there till We left. Quite the filled day. And that wasn't mentioning Panera after school with Johanna Chris MEgan Brown and Jasmine. So yay random nights of fun. And I promised Walters a party at my house next week lol so yeah ... I'll be getting on that I suppose ... But yes anyways the point of me saying all this? Well there really wasn't one. And I really need to stop prefacing everything i say with *yay*
And I'm tired now and going to bed.
Sorry there wasn't anything very deep or meaningful on this post. But yeah ... Goodnight.
I've been blessed with some really great memories in the past year. No matter how bad things seem I keep playing memories from March or May Kairos or summer adventures or Chris's basement hangouts or Melissa's basement fun ... just all the times I've been with my friends having an awesome time this year. London, Cast Parties, prom ... I am really really really ridiculously lucky. And I love all of my friends!
So Thursday night I went out with Chris for ice cream after finishing my english paper and turning it in. Yes it probably came up like 1/2 plagarized but I just don't care anymore. Anyway went out with Chris around 7 ... fast forward to 10 o'clock and I finally got home. Getting IceCream turned into getting ice cream, kidnapping Walters, then Johanna and then going to Mickeys and driving everyone home. I love random nights and I love my friends. And I still hadnt studied but eh oh well. It was a good Thursday night!
And tonight. Wow ... tonight was fun and random to the extreme. Just a list of where we went tonight. Johanna came over and we figured we would just play it by ear from there ... so we were driving to Peterson's for ice cream when we ended up behind Ashley. We then ended up going to Johnny's for italian ice with her and Aleena. Then we went to Tim's. Appearances were made by Ash, Tim, Aleena, Formanski, Dave, Tess, Sweeney, Mgirr, Dom, Barrett, Pat Locke, and Chris. Me and Ashley played catch in the park. Yep, fun fun times. Then me Chris and Johanna went to DiNicos for pizza and lo and behold Fenwick ppl were already there, Tom Nolan and Kelly among others. So that was random. THEN as we were eating my BROTHER walks in. Talk about bizarre ... Anyways after that we called Walters and picked him up. Called Marty and randomly showed up at his house ... and ended up hanging out there till We left. Quite the filled day. And that wasn't mentioning Panera after school with Johanna Chris MEgan Brown and Jasmine. So yay random nights of fun. And I promised Walters a party at my house next week lol so yeah ... I'll be getting on that I suppose ... But yes anyways the point of me saying all this? Well there really wasn't one. And I really need to stop prefacing everything i say with *yay*
And I'm tired now and going to bed.
Sorry there wasn't anything very deep or meaningful on this post. But yeah ... Goodnight.
Thursday, May 20, 2004
Blah for responsabilities ... work and schoool and other ... Paper due on turn it in tonight at midnight, Paul leaving ominous comment qabout trouble at work with the bond cards ... stupid bosses being bacck from vacation ... and not to mention finals YUCK!!!!
I can't wait for the summer to really truly start. (That means finals being over nad papers being turned in)
I can't wait for the summer to really truly start. (That means finals being over nad papers being turned in)
Let's go back .... Back to the Beginning ...
I'm exhausted as I write this, but It's been a long day and it deserves to go on the blog. Okay, I'm not gonna lie, I'm actually just still addicted and loooking for an excuse to blog. Right, so anyway. Today ended up being pretty good minus the fact that I slept in and got going about an hour later than i should have. Not good since I was supposed to be picking Jasmine up and heading to Johanna's for Six Flags. Whoops. But all is good cuz we got there, and after a few looks from and comments from Chris it was all quickly forgotten. *whew* Anyway, I wasn't really in a 6flags going kind of mood this morning and was just like hey okay let's get this over with. But it was SUCH an awesome time!!! I love our tradition! So yeah, yay for becoming a lobster, eating cheese fries, tieing for ultimate pig with two awesome friends, looking around guiltily hoping no one else saw that ... yay for front rows and deep conversations over cheese fries and ice cream. and realizing that we truly are FRIENDS. I hadn't realized it till today but HOLY COW how much as changed in the past year! Like seriously, the person who went to 6 flags last year and the person who went today are two very different people! Weird thoughts in my head today ... Plus working freshman orientation came up and me and Johanna were remembering greeting all the scared little freshman. And we were having so much fun with that, and all of a sudden I realized that was truly the beginning of our senior year and now we are at the end of it. WoW
Another big yay goes for movie night at Melissa's house. I have *finally* seen Love Actually, Susie you can un disown me hehe jk. I still need to see the beginning though. Too bad happy endings don't really exist. But hey - cool movie.
I had to remind myself a few times to concentrate on the fact that I can only control my actions and my feelings. I know how I feel and I know what my priorities are now. I know the lessons that I've finally learned, but I can't learn them for someone else, even though I wish I could. I just can't wait to get to college and away from the entire situation. I'm not really upset that there is awkwardness and stuff ... because I probably deserve it. I'm just glad we can still all manage to be a big happy dysfunctional family. Last night gave me hope that this summer won't suck :) In fact, I think it's rather going to rock!!!
By the way the title to this post is the lyrics to the song me Jas and Jo recorded at 6flags. Once again, Yay Us lol
Another big yay goes for movie night at Melissa's house. I have *finally* seen Love Actually, Susie you can un disown me hehe jk. I still need to see the beginning though. Too bad happy endings don't really exist. But hey - cool movie.
I had to remind myself a few times to concentrate on the fact that I can only control my actions and my feelings. I know how I feel and I know what my priorities are now. I know the lessons that I've finally learned, but I can't learn them for someone else, even though I wish I could. I just can't wait to get to college and away from the entire situation. I'm not really upset that there is awkwardness and stuff ... because I probably deserve it. I'm just glad we can still all manage to be a big happy dysfunctional family. Last night gave me hope that this summer won't suck :) In fact, I think it's rather going to rock!!!
By the way the title to this post is the lyrics to the song me Jas and Jo recorded at 6flags. Once again, Yay Us lol
Tuesday, May 18, 2004
So it's the obligatory oh my god I just had my last day of high school post ...
So it's the obligatory oh my god I just had my last day of high school post ...
Man, what can I say. It sure ended with a bang. Today was as good as I could have asked it to be. My last morning confusing the hell out of Mr Arscott by my bipolar relationship with Chris ... I'll have to share him now! jk ... I too went through freaking out when I hear Wonderwall after second period. LAst time meeting all my friends in between classes ... I really can't believe it. I wrote my last notes from the halls of Fenwick to Johanna and to Melissa. Last time collecting attendence 10th period, but more importantly last time hanging out with Christina Nick and Spencer and Caryn who made my day so many times when I needed it without even their realizing it. And Last 11th period!!! (which by the way lasted for about 20 years...) Yearbooks kick ass. When I got home from work I sat down and I really looked at it all. And wow. It's been a long year. I know that it's flown by, but seeing pictures from last summer and from back in September. What a different world I was living in! And you know what, I really think I liked it better, but oh well, as Caryn's profile reminds me ... "It's such a waste to always look behind you/ Should be lookin' straight ahead" It's been quite the year and I'm really dissapointed in myself with how it ended. This is something I was talking about with both Meliss and Johanna earlier today ...
The past few weeks I have been tryign to be someone who I am not. I don't know why, maybe it was a messed up way to impress someone, maybe it was just 4 years of beign the good girl trying to rebel. I thought that I wanted to experience more and so I could leave high school having done certain things. From London till now, I lost my shame, but I also lost something else. I don't know what. But I want it back. Maybe I'll take a page outta Mr Scheoph's book and get my innocence back (does any one else remember that from March?) Anyways, I've done a lot of things in the past few weeks that I am really not proud of. And I'm beginning to realize now why I was doing it and I am learning that there is only so much that I can control. And from here on out I am going to control what I can. I can control my own actions and no one else's. And that's all I really need to worry about. Ideally I would rewind time and take back everything I've done. But I can't. I can only control the future.
So I'm copying Georgia because I'm in a sentimental mood and yeah ...
"It's not a question, but a lesson learned in time/It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right/I hope you had the time of your life"
"I keep thinking times will never change/Keep on thinking things will always be the same/These memories are playing like a film without sound"
Here's to goodbye/Tomorrow's gonna come too soon"
"Closing time/Time for you to go out to the places you will be from/So gather up your jackets, move it to the exits/I hope you have found a friend/Closing time/Every new beginning comes from some other beginning's end"
"Slow change may pull us apart/When the light gets into your heart, baby/Don't You Forget About Me/Don't Don't Don't Don't/Don't You Forget About Me ..."
"Sometimes you want to go/Where everybody knows your name/And they're always glad you came/You want to be where you can see/Our troubles are all the same/You want to be where everybody knows your name"
Man, what can I say. It sure ended with a bang. Today was as good as I could have asked it to be. My last morning confusing the hell out of Mr Arscott by my bipolar relationship with Chris ... I'll have to share him now! jk ... I too went through freaking out when I hear Wonderwall after second period. LAst time meeting all my friends in between classes ... I really can't believe it. I wrote my last notes from the halls of Fenwick to Johanna and to Melissa. Last time collecting attendence 10th period, but more importantly last time hanging out with Christina Nick and Spencer and Caryn who made my day so many times when I needed it without even their realizing it. And Last 11th period!!! (which by the way lasted for about 20 years...) Yearbooks kick ass. When I got home from work I sat down and I really looked at it all. And wow. It's been a long year. I know that it's flown by, but seeing pictures from last summer and from back in September. What a different world I was living in! And you know what, I really think I liked it better, but oh well, as Caryn's profile reminds me ... "It's such a waste to always look behind you/ Should be lookin' straight ahead" It's been quite the year and I'm really dissapointed in myself with how it ended. This is something I was talking about with both Meliss and Johanna earlier today ...
The past few weeks I have been tryign to be someone who I am not. I don't know why, maybe it was a messed up way to impress someone, maybe it was just 4 years of beign the good girl trying to rebel. I thought that I wanted to experience more and so I could leave high school having done certain things. From London till now, I lost my shame, but I also lost something else. I don't know what. But I want it back. Maybe I'll take a page outta Mr Scheoph's book and get my innocence back (does any one else remember that from March?) Anyways, I've done a lot of things in the past few weeks that I am really not proud of. And I'm beginning to realize now why I was doing it and I am learning that there is only so much that I can control. And from here on out I am going to control what I can. I can control my own actions and no one else's. And that's all I really need to worry about. Ideally I would rewind time and take back everything I've done. But I can't. I can only control the future.
So I'm copying Georgia because I'm in a sentimental mood and yeah ...
"It's not a question, but a lesson learned in time/It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right/I hope you had the time of your life"
"I keep thinking times will never change/Keep on thinking things will always be the same/These memories are playing like a film without sound"
Here's to goodbye/Tomorrow's gonna come too soon"
"Closing time/Time for you to go out to the places you will be from/So gather up your jackets, move it to the exits/I hope you have found a friend/Closing time/Every new beginning comes from some other beginning's end"
"Slow change may pull us apart/When the light gets into your heart, baby/Don't You Forget About Me/Don't Don't Don't Don't/Don't You Forget About Me ..."
"Sometimes you want to go/Where everybody knows your name/And they're always glad you came/You want to be where you can see/Our troubles are all the same/You want to be where everybody knows your name"
Monday, May 17, 2004
It's an addiction ...
Yeah so about not being a compulsive blogger ... It's gonne be a slow recovery. Honestly though I feel like it's been ages since my last post, even though it was only a matter of a few hours. Today was the best and the worst Monday I have had in a while. Worse for obvious reasons but best because after I took a nap, from which I wanted to wake up and have it be like a week ago ... anyway i woke up and it was still here and now and I was feeling pretty crappy. Yeah i deserve to feel crappy i know. But anyways I ended up driving over to Marys and hung out with Jetta and her and talked to susan too and looked at prom pics and it was just what i needed cuz it had been way too long since i had seen them. I filled them in on my life since like London to now. They were quite shocked. I haven't exactly been acting like the gradeschool mary that they used to know. I'm not sure if I like that or not. I need to find some medium between that mary and this mary. Allright I swear I won't blog for at least 24 hours lol ...
A new beginning ...
Allright, so you all know me, and you knew I'd be back. I am a tad dependant on the whole blogging thing. But I needed a fresh start. So never fear, I have returned to the blogging world (after a whole night away lol) But this time I'm gonna work on not giving in to the temptation to update this thing everyday. Maybe everyweek or so. Blogging can be a destructive habit! So here's to healthy blogging ...
So tomorrow is our last day of classes at Fenwick. THANK GOD! is what I say to that lol. Still a lot of work to do before finals ... grr to me and my procrastinating ways! Honors Convocation was what I should have expected looong and boring. But I had my name called a few times, I feel very appreciated lol.
*There comes a point in your life when you realize who cares, who never did, and who always will. Dont dwell on people from your past that have caused you pain. Theres a reason they didnt make it to your future.*
For some reason it took me a lot longer to learn that lesson than it should have, But I think I'm finally figuring it out.
Thank you to all my friends, I don't deserve all of you but thanks for being there anyways.
I miss a friend who I haven't talked to in a while. I seriously like don't feel complete without being able to just vent to her about everything. So boo for that. I'll call her up one day soon. It's been too long since one of us has done that.
You know what though, no matter what, this summer is still gonna rock. It just has to.
We trace the sun across the sky
And we laugh till we cry
Always so hard to say goodbye (goodbye)
And we all sit round here in our home town
It's so good like this, these are times we'll miss
The memories, I hope they'll never fade
Glowing embers fly across the sky
Here by my side, in my summer, our last summer
The world passes by in my summer, our last summer
The light makes shadows fall, surrounded by each other
Alive to watch it all, the view from our last summer
The view from our last summer...
So tomorrow is our last day of classes at Fenwick. THANK GOD! is what I say to that lol. Still a lot of work to do before finals ... grr to me and my procrastinating ways! Honors Convocation was what I should have expected looong and boring. But I had my name called a few times, I feel very appreciated lol.
*There comes a point in your life when you realize who cares, who never did, and who always will. Dont dwell on people from your past that have caused you pain. Theres a reason they didnt make it to your future.*
For some reason it took me a lot longer to learn that lesson than it should have, But I think I'm finally figuring it out.
Thank you to all my friends, I don't deserve all of you but thanks for being there anyways.
I miss a friend who I haven't talked to in a while. I seriously like don't feel complete without being able to just vent to her about everything. So boo for that. I'll call her up one day soon. It's been too long since one of us has done that.
You know what though, no matter what, this summer is still gonna rock. It just has to.
We trace the sun across the sky
And we laugh till we cry
Always so hard to say goodbye (goodbye)
And we all sit round here in our home town
It's so good like this, these are times we'll miss
The memories, I hope they'll never fade
Glowing embers fly across the sky
Here by my side, in my summer, our last summer
The world passes by in my summer, our last summer
The light makes shadows fall, surrounded by each other
Alive to watch it all, the view from our last summer
The view from our last summer...
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